Oscillation between two mind sets

You may have gotten used to holding yourself together, but it's tiring. At some point, you just burn out. I wonder if that exacerbates your health conditions? @creative_writer

I hope and pray one day you will be released of the burden to feel you need to hold it together yourself.

And you recognise that @creative_writer . You know you have work to do, so that's a start.

I don't know how old you are, but I know I really struggled in my earlier days. As much as I struggled, change didn't really kick in until I was about 33.

Despite all the therapy and support I had before that, nothing actually made a difference. Then somehow, something "clicked" and then it all fell in to place. I hope the same goes for you.

Hey @creative_writer just ruminating on some of the things you have written here. I think we have some similarities, it was extremely hard for me to talk to psychologists, I would pretty much lie to them about a lot of things because of the fear of being judged and being vulnerable I suppose. I was going to suggest maybe seeing a uni psychologist but you have already considered it. My first psych was a uni psych and they were good, and importantly free. Obviously just anecdotal, I joined a support group at unit through the psych and that was useful too.

I am 33 @tyme haha, I've had a long stint of improvement though but coincidentally this last year was an insane time for me in terms of managing mental illness. Ah hm, there were other things I wanted to say but I have forgotten. Well I will at least agree that mixed episodes are truly terrible, worst experience of my life easily.

Hang in there @creative_writer it sounds like you are doing all the right things, I understand it is exhausting though

That's so interesting to read @Acanthiza . I was 33 and it was one of the worst times with my MH, but also the beginning of recovery. For me, I felt it had to get to the worst before it got better... and since getting better, I haven't gone backwards since.

My early to mid twenties were definitely the worst stretch for me @tyme , with a lot of bad patches afterwards : /

I still get very nasty depression but the intervals are getting longer and longer I think between the very serious episodes. I've had to learn a lot but I will write all about that when I have enough energy to keep rambling away in my own thread.