Oscillation between two mind sets

Mm it sucks having to hide it or come up with excuses for your parents hey @creative_writer.

Hmm yeah it might be kinda busy, and it's only open for another hour. Alas! You could always give it a go and like if you're on hold for more than 10 min just hang up, but if there's a chance that you could get through sooner, is it worth trying anyway? How about Lifeline chat or SCBS chat, have you had much luck with those?

As for stumbling over words - we've all been there, and I know that the counsellor would be super understanding. You could write a few points down beforehand too.

In any case, we're always here to support you on forums so if there's anything you wanna chat about here, I'm happy to listen. If you're not sure if you could post it on the forums you can always email us first too.

What's the service @creative_writer

Is it Melbouren based over the phone or something?

I want to get back into he GS as well, but when i do it. It won't let me because of my post code but I was told by the people when I used it last year I would be able to get in okay.

That's odd @Birdofparadise8 have you emailed the team about reapplying but being barred by your postode?

@creative_writer mm it's such a tricky thing to navigate hey. Like there's pieces missing from memory and sometimes I think that sparks our brains into that place of morbid curiosity. I think it's natural to have a part of you that wants to fill in those gaps. It's also pretty normal to have some memories return much later - the brain tries to protect us from the horrible dark memories and then they might come back when we're in a safe place or even just randomly. I suppose you could weigh up whether it is more painful to sit within the unknown, or to go seeking and possibly unearth something that is super traumatising to remember. I think some people have details that they never end up remembering. And sometimes unearthing them can empower you to start processing and healing. Perhaps it is to do with whether you can find peace and contentment without ever knowing. Everyone's journey is gonna be different hey.

You ever looked into CASA for some support in navigating this?

No, I haven't @Jynx

Should I do that?

I was in Tasmania, so it was all covered, and then when I moved here, I was told it was okay.

Might as well try @Birdofparadise8 I can't say for sure but if you let them know the situation, and if they also told you that you could return to GS later, then it's worth a shot, right?

Yeah I sent an email @Jynx

Okay, I'll have a look @creative_writer

Thanks

@creative_writer it sounds like you came to a point of acceptance about not knowing, but something has brought it back up for you again and that sense of acceptance has dwindled, is that right? Could you sit with or take some time to reflect on what may have prompted it to re-emerge, what steps you took last time to practice some acceptance, and decide whether you could do that again?

Yeah I reckon it'd be worth it - even if the waitlist is quite long still, at least you'd be on it and can use that to reassure yourself in the meantime.