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Sometimes I feel like I’m on top of things and don’t feel like my trauma defines me and I don’t feel so ashamed and scared. Other times I want to hide from the world and feel like a **** (I’m not going to say the word here since I don’t want to trigger anyone) 😭, I feel so ashamed that I don’t want people to know
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Unknown userMember
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Yep @creative_writer
just jumped back online now. You alright hun?
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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@Former-Member I have so much going through my mind. A lot of confusion and hurt. I want to cry 😢
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Unknown userMember
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Sounds really tough right now @creative_writer💜🌺
can you take space somewhere to cry? I’ll be right here online with you 🌺
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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@Former-Member I’m not alone at home. It’ll raise questions.
I know I’m safe rn. But none of us know the future, I’m scared of being hurt again
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Unknown userMember
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Sorry there’s not an opportunity to take space and release tears @creative_writer💜🌺
I’m a bit concerned for you dearest.. are you at risk of harm? 💜
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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@Former-Member maybe once I go to bed.
I’m safe right now, but obviously my brain doesn’t seem to think so. Hypervilgiance lives with me, it’s there when nobody else is
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tymeModerator
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We are here for you @creative_writer .
I hear it is so hard for you right now.
Hi @Former-Member - hope you are okay.
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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@tyme I have lost too much 😢. I know I don’t need to carry this for the rest of my life, I’m figuring out a way I can let go, I also fear it may involve talking to someone about it a bit more, and it’s my sensitive spot. I’ve always been so guarded, holding back tears in therapy is normal for me. I find it hard to let that guardedness down because no one feels safe
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Unknown userMember
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Ok @creative_writer💜
Thanks for confirming yours safe right now, however living with hypervigilance is an uneasy constant companion - there when all other things aren’t… I do understand; I think I have experienced something similar while in my younger years 🌺
please do remember you have us here holding space for you 💜
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