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Oscillation between two mind sets

Oscillation between two mind sets

Sometimes I feel like I’m on top of things and don’t feel like my trauma defines me and I don’t feel so ashamed and scared. Other times I want to hide from the world and feel like a **** (I’m not going to say the word here since I don’t want to trigger anyone) 😭, I feel so ashamed that I don’t want people to know

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@creative_writer I hope it lessens too hun. Sometimes we just gotta keep putting one foot in front of the other hey, as difficult as that can be.

Thanks darlin, I hope so too - but also recognise my energy is a bit low atm so might have to wait till tomorrow before I do off to shops, especially because that environment tends to be pretty draining.

I'm on standby if you wanna keep chatting about stuff, or want me to come sit with ya - just say the word 💜

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@Jynx I finished up my prayers, feel a bit better, still feeling the sense of unease inside me. I guess I’ll have to sit with it. I’m already exhausted from the flashbacks, don’t feel like sitting with emotions.

The shops can be very stimulating. How do you cope with sensory overload when you’re out?

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@creative_writer yeah gotta pick our battles atimes don't we? No point tryna sit with it if it's gonna breed resentment or frustration. I'm glad the prayers were helpful hun; very good for the soul indeed 💜

Noise-cancelling headphones! It's bonkers to me that people will just raw-dog the grocery store without any kind of sensory filter haha. I also try to be mindful of my warning signs for overwhelm - like getting irritable about having to wait in line or being impatient about having to scoot around someone blocking the aisle. I also try to remind myself that I don't have to do everything all at once. Like, sometimes I have something on my list that I feel like I have to do, probably because if I don't it means I'll have to remember to do it later (which involves both effort to remember, and effort to head out of the house again). So I try to remind myself that unless it's on an actual deadline, it can wait, cos when I gotta bail from the shops I gotta BAIL, ya know?

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@Jynx I feel like things are escalating. This body flashback isn’t shaking itself off. If this PRN doesn’t kick in soon, I’m not sure what I’m going to do.

Noise cancelling headphones sound like a good idea, never tried that

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@creative_writer aww hun, I am sorry that it feels like things are escalating, that can be so scary. I know it's not always a 'desirable' option but chatting to a crisis line could help - just having that opportunity for co-regulation and a safe space to vent, ya know?

Yeah grocery shopping is waaaay more tolerable when you can choose your own soundtrack, haha you could even pop on your fav movie soundtrack and turn it into an adventure 😉 That's what I sometimes do.

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@Jynx I’m going to bed. I’ll talk to you when I catch you next. Goodnight 💖🫂

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Nighty night @creative_writer rest well hun, hope tomorrow is easier on you 💜

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@Jynx I hope you slept well last night ❤️

I think I'm going to need more PRN 😞 , my brain wants me gone. But I'm staying safe for now

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After 6 harrowing months I got my headphones yesterday. OMG. I'm hoping my prns will go back to being just that and not in my regular pack.😅🤣😂 FYI I'm very attuned to what you are describing. It resonates and whilst I'm sorry you're in the midst of an epic battle it gives me strength knowing that I'm not alone. As much as I love sailing and rough seas Kay Cottee I'm not. (I self manage using analogies and humour and my over-active imagination.) 🫠🙃🤪🤗😊🥰

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@Radarears I need to get headphones too. Sensory overload adds to the stress I’m already experiencing. I am often exhausted after I come back from the outside world. There is too much noise, the lights are so bright.

It really sucks to rely on PRNs, I just took some last night and again this morning. It hadn’t been 24 hours. I just needed them to slow down. I’m in a darkened room right now to prevent myself from being overstimulated, my head is also feeling a bit heavy.

We are always here for you on the forums. It helps to be able to talk to peers one can relate to
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