Oscillation between two mind sets

Could be that this is something you need to explore with a psychologist though it's contradictory because of the issues with trust and reaching out for support @creative_writer. Sometimes we don't have the answers to big questions and have to sort of agree to disagree with ourselves if we can't. Our thoughts can change over time too so what seems challenging may be easier in the future. RiverSeal

@creative_writer how long till your next placement? I can definitely understand the concern hun, I know how much your placement means to you.

@creative_writer totally to be expected hun - anxiety is our protector (even if it gets overzealous atimes) and wants to stop you from enduring the pain of flashbacks - even if it has no way of knowing that that'd actually happen. Could help to try to remind yourself that you managed to get through your last placement, even though you did have some moments of being triggered there. So if it does happen again, yes it might suck big time - but it's not going to ruin everything, and you've already proven you can get through to the other side.

How you feeling about going into a school?

Different school though right @creative_writer?

Helps me to try to remember - we're pattern recognition specialists, our brains are always trying to predict the future based on the past. But the universe is far more random and chaotic than that. If I find myself saying, "What if it all goes wrong?" I gotta remember to also ask, "What if it all goes right?"

Are you also sorta not looking forward to it so much cos it's a school, and that's not an area of passion for you? I know I never wanted to do my placement in a school, just not my cuppa hey.

@creative_writer Hmm... did you let the coodinators know about where your passions are? I recall it took me a while to secure a placement because I was pretty adamant about not working in a school, despite the fact that about 80% of the placement options were schools. I ended up in a community centre, and very glad I did - way more interesting work, got some really cool clients. I only just made my hours requirements lol but it was worth it cos it was experience that was actually valuable to where I wanted to point myself afterwards.