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Sometimes I feel like I’m on top of things and don’t feel like my trauma defines me and I don’t feel so ashamed and scared. Other times I want to hide from the world and feel like a **** (I’m not going to say the word here since I don’t want to trigger anyone) 😭, I feel so ashamed that I don’t want people to know
I'm sorry you are feeling this way @creative_writer and it sounds pretty tough rn. What has worked for you in the past when you have felt like this? RiverSeal
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Shaz51Senior Contributor
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Hugs my @creative_writer , sitting with you my friend
Hope you feel better soon 💕
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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@RiverSeal, yeah, I feel torn between life and just letting go. Everyone will be okay without me, I’m just another extra human being on this planet. However, for spiritual reasons I hesitate. I know this life isn’t permanent, we are all here for a short period of time, do I want to make it shorter? If I just have to hold on for a bit longer, I’ll do it, but I can’t hold on forever
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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@Shaz51💖🫂. I’m utterly shattered
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Shaz51Senior Contributor
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Hold on my awesome friend @creative_writer , keep on keeping on
Holding you ❤️
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RiverSealModerator
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It sounds tough being in this state of mind @creative_writer and I get that things are tough rn. Please stay connected here on the Forums and keep sharing with your peers. Do you feel like you need a little extra support from crisis services this evening? It can be really beneficial to talk with someone when you feel like this, and I don't want you to feel alone. RiverSeal
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Shaz51Senior Contributor
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@creative_writer , xxxx
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creative_writerSenior Contributor
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@Shaz51 and @RiverSeal, I did reach out to lifeline but I don’t know if I should again. I started to disassociate, but the feelings returned with a punch. I’m going to have dinner soon
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Shaz51Senior Contributor
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What are you having for dinner @creative_writer
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RiverSealModerator
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That's great that you called @creative_writer and I encourage you to call again or try a different service too. I hope you enjoy your dinner! RiverSeal
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