Oscillation between two mind sets

Hey @creative_writer Intrusive thoughts and physical pain are exhausting Hon. Can you do something nice for yourself over this weekend? Self care is so important when we are hit on all sides by any pain.

I am doing okay today @creative_writer I have managed to do a little work in between laying down. It is hard to sit for too long so I have been careful to rest before my back gets too painful. Being home all day also means I have been able to have pain relief meds (and lots of fur baby snuggles😁). Hopefully after Monday the pain will be gone. I know it will not be the end of it all but after 3 months of this any help will be welcomed.

I hope after your busy day and lack of sleep you are resting up tonight Hon. Sending hugs ❤️

Don't lose hope Hon - each day is a new day with new possibilities ❤️

...and if today is hard then look towards tomorrow @creative_writer

Yes your supports get paid to be there but they also do their job because they believe in it - and that then means they believe in the support you are receiving - and we all need support.

We are also here with you and that is because we want to support you. I know times can be incredibly hard but I also see so much growth and potential in you ❤️ It does take time but little by little you are doing it Hon ...and I am here to keep encouraging you because not only do you matter but you deserve the world.

I get you with the rest needed @creative_writer I am the same at the end of the year - need a couple of weeks of doing very little apart from rest. This year is of course going to be different though as I will be doing whatever is needed to get my back right and be able to do more. It is not going to be an overnight fix but I am hoping the injection tomorrow is the beginning of that.

I am very much like you in regards to relying on myself. I have been let down too many times and that takes a toll. As for support and opening up - it is definitely harder when you have lost trust in anything. There are things I still cannot talk about but I also don't need to. I can pinpoint the exact day things started to turn around for me and that was a day I was in tears at my doctor's. I had come from a psych appointment and was so re-traumatised that I could have ended it there and then. My GP contacted my pdoc and they both decided for me that trauma therapy had to stop (and I very much agreed). I had to completely have that decision taken out of my hands but I also felt that I not only had support but I also trusted these two. That too was a major turning point in my life as for the first time in my life I could allow others to make decisions on my behalf and know that I could rely on them. I, of course, do not need that now but knowing that support is there if I ever need it again actually helps me when times are tough.