Need A Backup

Good Morning,

tried to ring sane 1800187263 but you don't open 'till 10am 😯 I'm just really tired. Need A backup, a check-in support as i lose relationships if i talk about my 'problems' irl (and frankly, most people just don't want to hear it, dont know what to say, and default to saying some pretty stupid things :face_with_rolling_eyes:)

Anyway, I might be in some trouble as services wind down for the year as I stupidly thought I was ready to reduce my antidepressant (ssri) but think I might have picked a bad time of year as something's not right.

Its really hard to self-monitor...

Do you have a self assessment checklists somewhere here to self evaluate?

I reduced my AD by half almost month ago (on them over a decade), but maybe even half is too much to cut back (or is there a hump I just need to ride out). I can't go smaller with tiny tavlet. I'd really Like to not be dependent on medication but... don't want to end up burdening the system with a crisis, or dying just yet hopefully (though I don't think many would care much).

I'm thinking maybe, starting today, going back on full dose, but I know it might take a while to build levels back up again & would like a backup here maybe please.

I have a couple of major grief anniversaries coming up too which are play with my head sometimes.

I can't talk with my GP about it re language barrier and don't think she cares about MH issues. Since I moved here 4yrs back she prescribes my repeat prescription every six months without even asking how I'm coping, not once. She doesnt even know about my parasuidide events / breakdowns and hospital admissions (10+ yrs back). Shell religiously check ky BP though but GPs really dont seem to have time for MH. I could ask for the MH careplan thing but yeah, its that time of year when ya just cant get an apt. BTDT!

I wish there was an A&E just for mental health, so I know I have somewhere to go where they wont panic should I c one undone. I'm very isolated. At least the mood is more passive this time, not overwhelmed or feel as worried, just sleep a lot.

Anyway, thanks.