Oh My Lord Everyone 💓💓💓
I was reflecting on this post as I drove to Vic roads yest. B4 I read your answers. I think, I just need my friends. The answers will come in time.
I can't describe what a mind fk this has been for the last year. Being told, 'yes, this is definately what your future is" & then weeks or days later it changes.
This must have happened 20x in last year.
Tiny backstory - fyi I put in proposal of $50000 to his lawyers. I am entitled to 10x that but yada legal yada.
That money would have provided 2 years rent, re: my NDIS plan that I'm unable to secure employment at this stage in my life.
The very least I needed, to set myself up.
I waited weeks for response, meanwhile getting excited looking at real estate . Com imagining my new life.
His lawyers came back with offer of $10000. I can't take any of my furniture, clothes etc. AND I must revoke IVO - basically illegal to coherse, pressure me to do that.
I can't say anymore - except, I have good news that has arisen from one random phone call I made a few weeks ago. It's not a sure thing, tho cards are stacked in my favour & I have to a team of 8 solicitors now!! WTF
I wanted to share, to let you all know - I seem to be climbing up each rung slowly.
Mentally, I have given up. There is nothing left.
@Former-Member @ yes, I have a beautiful Ruby ring, I will start wearing it. Thankyou X
@Kyle1 @ thankyou for taking time to reply. I am very sorry to read your were homeless for a time. I see lots of homeless in my area. I give what I can, I think connection is all any of us want/need. There is one scary man who yells & was living in tent under chemist. We are friends now. I give him $for smokes. He actually is gentle & soft. I think he likes it if I sit with him for 5 mins, not even talking. I gave him a torn page from art book of ship. He got it. He said - I need to sit down & look at at this. Thankyou for sharing that you are afraid. Me too. And I feel like it's wrong when I feel that way. It's not. Thankyou.
@Bunniekins @ thankyou lovely. Knowing you, has already helped me. You are kind, funny.. Funky!! Thankyou for offering to chat late at night. Lately, all I do is appointments & 💤 I hope you and your son 2 are ok, best as you can be. Thankyou for being here for me☀️ you are wonderful. I mean it.
@Appleblossom @ thankyou Love💜💖💗 I do deserve a safe home. We all do. This is part of my fight. If not for me - what happens to all the others? I am seeing glaring unforgivable exclusion from society for those of us who are most vulnerable, marginalised, victimised, minorities. (Sorry, that sentence was not the best grammar - you can tell my head is 🤯) It keeps me going tho - THIS is not good enough. You are here, fighting with me, attending church, I draw on your strength. Lots of times actually! Add I love our girly sesh!🧚♀️ You are maybe slightly jumbled like me - or it's the world & we are actually too clear. I do recognise that you are potentially person easily misunderstood. I feel like you are living despite your battlescars - & perhaps you understand the value of exposing past pains (overcome, or progress) as greatest strength. I can tell you are not to be messed with! And fragile, beautiful soft, vulnerable inside. Not everyone gets this. To quote a guy from church lunch, 'we are not mainstream.'💜
@NatureLover @ thanks for your kindness in replying, encouragement & wanting to help me. All of your answers, have actually given me encouragement to keep going. My fuel tank is on empty. Has been for while. These comments - they are giving me - not fuel, cause I'm broken down on side of road in middle of night in haunted forest - but it's giving me the smell of petrol💡 maybe that's all I need rn. All I can cope with x
@Blackbird11 @ thanks. I think the questions I post here are difficult for anyone to answer. Maybe part of reason I do it, is to keep a record. Ppl in my situation can learn in future. PSW is not easy job. The ppl on my team all deserve pay rise & Australian of year medals!
VIC ROADs can supply history of addresses (if you have licence!) For last 20 years. Don't listen to the people on the phone. You cannot pick it up from office! A request is sent to Head Office. I have asked for email, over postal mail because .. 🐌. The cost is $20
Ooooooh @TAB (best Eva roomayyyyy)
ALWAYS there for ME ... & So many others on these forums. You were a lucky chance for me to have met. You are solid, reliable, straight to the point - & FFS, YOU care. All of you SANERS have helped me more than I ever expected. We help each other don't we? Without knowing the impact it has on the other person. We give our time. It's all we have. We could choose to go buy ourselves a treat, or watch 📺. Time given to another - to me, ... It's pretty cool. We only need to be discerning (my lesson) exactly who gets, our precious time.
All of your suggestions were brilliant. I can explain why, many of them are not within my reach. I think you can (all) already guess why.
Incredible for me to check the rearview.
Maybe catch you all in the music thread💜 cause, what is better? ..
I wish I could say more, to each of you, @Former-Member @ I feel like I don't give your posts the acknowledgement I feel they are worthy of. I love the whole energy, crystals, 'alternative' lifestyle you live. I know I would be fascinated, & we would def. Be friends if I ever got chance to visit your green mystical oasis. I know you are highly purposeful in your spirituallity, & disciplined.
Oh....I went to local Psychic Expo recently. Wow .... The ENERGIES in there. Beautiful! too much tho for this empath. I had a reading. Exp! $60 for 15 mins? I think. I loved everything she told me - a little ambiguous, tho I think I got answers to most important part of my life, thus deeper sense of trust in moving forward. She literally could have said anything - the first words out of her mouth were, "you have a strong and deep connection."
I bought 2 pieces of Unakite. One large rough, one thumbstone. I was physically feeling my heart mend as I held large piece.
I bought 'sensuality' incense 😘
I saw homeless man on my way back to car - I gave him the thumbstone. A nice thing to rub (?!) when he feels anxious. I wanted to keep it! I never had one b4. It made me happier for him to have it. He has probs lost it by now! I liked how he was interested about it.
He dropped it - I was glad it didn't smash.
Please don't reply - anyone, ever! LOLs, I love reading your words, kindness, contact. I need to get over this compulsion to respond.
PlS know if I give you 'like' - this is not FB? I can't think...oooh support - what it's really saying, is that you put a tiny little healthy atom, back into this broken heart 💜
Love to you
Thankyou
My friends
StanD
