While in hospital

@Zoe7

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1: three different guys at different times

2. 1 neighbour and 2 family (but again all at different times)

3. 9-13 yrs of age

Ask me more if you want

Having a conversation re complex ptsd on another thread with Appleblossom - think all three of us may have similar experiences - would you be ok with her joining us or want to stay just us atm?

No i don't mind at all @Zoe7

I am pretty sure that @Appleblossom knows my story

Hi @BlueBay

I read your post about the excess of $250.00 yesterday - and it seems a lot but is your health not more important?

There's no need to answer but is it a case that you cannot afford the $250.00 or that you just don't have it? - because when I was on the pension and would have needed something like that it would have been a priority.

It is rough though

I don't anything about ADD medication - I would assume it would slow you down - I haven't read any evidence of your having ADD though - my son had ADD and ADHD and oh man!! he could not have written sense the way you do - ah - that is something you must talk to your psyche about

You are having a really crappy time right now - okay - it is okay to have a crappy time - horrible true - but it seems to me that nothing has been coming together to help you - I have been reading your posts all these months and in one sense you are moving along but the last month or so it has been worse

But the mother stuff - not everyone - even your psyche will understand that - people could not know unless their mother had treated them so badly - and this is hard - and you have worked out you will not see her again - and that is huge grief work - HUGE -

You want it to be better - eventually it will be - right now - for your MIL - I guess she doesn't really know it's Christmas - and she doesn't really know where she is right now - and might be miserable but will forget it when you have all gone.

A quiet Christmas with your kids - not exciting but okay - get them to wrap each other's presents -

It will be alright - it will

Dec

Hi @BlueBay

Yeah - it sounds weird to give you medication to give you a boost if you have ADD and/of ADHD but then my son has these two and his metabolism worked in reverse so when he had medication it was the opposite -so yes - it slowed him down

I have an idea of what you are taking and that is possibly not right for you - but I question your psyche and wonder if he is right for you - making you waiting to get into hospital then you are not in there long enough and your medication is constantly being changed

But hey - don't stop taking it - that can be really bad - none of this medication can just be stopped

Also - I know you go to a small hospital - there are bigger ones where there is a programme going on all day and the groups are different - like communications and assertiveness and - wondering what went on all those years ago - more than just art which is good - but all day - which means there is a lot happening

But from what you say you are happiest alone - so that is something easier to work on. Have some day dreams on the new place you will chose and insist on your own space - where you can do your art and knitting and just be yourself without having to account for your time or worry about Huffnpuff wanting to tidy up behind you when you need to leave your art work as it is

Aw - that would make such a difference - your life just as you want it - wtg

My Christmas was fine - and now I am tired - I felt like going back to bed a couple of hours ago but I am still here - typing away - and I have watered the garden.

All the best - take you time and insist on some space for yourself right now too

Dec