Far and Away

Thank you @Zoe7 .....

I am feeling numb I think .... don't know what to think or feel ..... wish I could click on fast-forward.

Oh Hon - I can understand those feelings. If it is what I think then it is a massive shock and even more so a complete betrayal of everything you ever had together.

I wish I was there with you and feel powerless knowing you are there alone to go through this. But you have me for as long as you need tonight and for whatever you need to say (or not say). ...not going anywhere Hon - you mean so much to me (and others here) and I do know anything you need from us we are here with you @Faith-and-Hope 😘🌹

It might not be exactly what you're thinking @Zoe7, but the effect on the kids won't be too far removed .... it's sort-of in the same category.

Dont want to say any more at this stage. It does explain why things are moving ahead so fast on his timeline. Think this relationship is nowhere near as new as he has been trying to present it.

All indications have been that way @Faith-and-Hope in what you have said here and the way he has gone 'missing' so often. I never really believed the 'going to see mother' bit so often and hoped beyond hope that what I was thinking was not right. It will all play out in the wash though Hon and He must be extremely naive or totally self absorbed (I know which one that is as I am sure you do too) not to think you and your kids would not be so adversely affected by his actions.

Don't let him rush through things at your detriment though Hon - you have rights and a say in how this all plays out - and the kids will fully understand you standing your ground whilst at the same time taking the high moral ground ...because quite frankly that ship passed for him a long time ago. Look after yourself whatever his timeline is - I am not saying make it extremely difficult for him to reach that as you are not the vindictive type (that again is his cross to bear) but make sure everything is not done on his terms and you get not only what you deserve but even more ...take him for all you can so you can finally be free and build a life you deserve. #@&*ing a/h deserves no less!

He is dragging out the legals @Zoe7 .... that's not on the speed treatment. It's the social side of it ..... ushering in the new at an indecent pace for the history and big life that we had, which is not easy to over-write.

What a mess .....

Oh sweetheart it is such a mess but you are on the right side of it all. One thing you will find out in the midst of all this is who your true friends are ...and whilst some people may be seen to be endorsing his behaviour the reality behind the scenes will no doubt be shock and disgust from them as well. The only loser here will be him because you will not lose any support but he has everything to lose ...his choices and his life fom herein to have to face. I still cannot believe he has the nerve to introduce his 'bit' into areas you have visited/interacted with but he has no shame whatsoever and no thought for the effects of that on anyone. Let him dig his own grave because that is what he is doing and whoever is left around you after all this has unfolded will be the true lights in your life.

@Faith-and-Hope 💛💚🧡💙💜💐🌺🌸🌷🌹

I believe "going to see mother" was happening @Zoe7, because there were communications and infrastructure around it, and baby dragons on that side of the country to interact with, but who really knows where the truth lies in all of this when there has been so much deception involved in what we know to have been a deception ?

There is a whole community of people around his "bit" .... who are welcome to him as far as I am concerned, but then maybe when the truth comes out, a whole lot of them are going to be shocked to their core as well. If he / they have lied and deceived in this direction, there has probably been lies and deception flowing back the other way too .....

I just want my kids out of it.

And I wish we could all go away somewhere, and stay away until it's over. I really don't want to witness this, and I don't want the kids to have to either.

I would put you all on a plane tonight to come here if I could @Faith-and-Hope Anything to shelter you all from what is to come. I can only imagine how hard this is - especially that the kids will be in the middle as well. All you ever want to do as a Mum is protect your kids from pain and I am sure you will shoulder so much of that (as far as you can) for them. That worries me too though ...I am very worried about you Hon. I know you cannot change anything but please look after yourself too. ...reach out to anyone you need to in order to get through this - psych, friends, family, your faith, us - there are so many people that love you and will do whatever they can to shoulder some of this burden for you ...and there is always Tassie if you need to leave it all behind for a little while

I might try to get some sleep @Zoe7 . I am feeling so numbed out I might be able to just shut down for a while .....

Thank you for sitting with me for a while. A.couple of my kids are in a really fragile state atm ..... I hope this stays as stable as it can for a bit longer ..... long enough for them to stabilise .....

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