Hi Hon. Feeling quite flat this morning - have been having some bad dreams this week - think it is related to the reduction in my night meds but also don't want to increase them again because I am less tired in the morning - it is that fine balance again that I need to discuss with my pdoc. She is away this week so it will not be untile next week so hoping the dreams settle by then.
Friend may come around today but to be honest I won't be disappointed if he can't make it as I have so much to get done. I will have to force myself up and about to get things done though as I am really tired today. The quicker I get it done though the sooner I can sort everything out and begin getting other things in order. Then I can also get the rubbish out onto the trailer and take that all away as well. There is a lot of gardening I will be able to do - including cutting back some tries and the rose bushes and that can all go straight onto the trailer.
There really is so much to do and I would like to have most of it done by Wednesday when we hsve DBT strting again. Getting back into that routine nd going back to the pool will help me when I go back to work as well.
Still no word on a school for me - going to call HR early next week and see if there is any further word on how the process is going. It is getting so close to the beginning of term that they need to do it soon - I have the feeling that it is going to be quite close to the return of term and as such will not give me any preparation time and that will be stressful - but I also need to try not to let it get to me as that will send me backwards and that is not a place either myself or anyone wants me to be - go with the flow hey as I can only do what I can go 
@Faith-and-Hope only a couple of weeks to go and I can have a real conversation with you again - so much been happening and so many times I wish you could chat with me - I miss my F&H words but I do have you with me in so many ways - I still wear my necklace when I go out and have you with me in that way. At home I have my stones and the peacock painting is in full view (but neglected a bit lately with all the garage work). I am looking forward to getting back to that - that will be part of my daily routine so I can keep that balance when I am back to work.
Sending you mega hugs and loads of love and hoping you are well - miss you so much and can't wait for you to be back here with us 