Thank you so much @Emelia8 ..... I know you understand what I am up against, and that matters to me very much.
@Zoe7 is a very strong support for me here @Sans911, and a very dear friend owing to shared experiences and values across time ...... her love and strength are undeniable ...... but so are you ❣️ I look for you Hon, and it gives me a buzz to see your name pop up, but I never want that to be a pressure for you to be here when you can't be ..... it means more to me to know you are looking after you.
Thank you so much for your well-wishes. Despite how disgusting my situation is at the moment, there are ways that it is already better, now that the true colours of the person I was so invested in for more than half of my life are now showing ...... but you know what ? There were some great times, some truly amazing experiences, and we have the most wonderful set of children I could have hoped for, who hopefully have all his good genes and very few of the bad ones. Nobody but me can take away the amazing memories I have of the time when he literally was someone else ...... and that particular avatar was wonderful most of the time.
Now that I have a clearer perspective of what this thing I am up against is, I am locking those very special memories into the display cabinet within my heart, and I will treasure them, no matter how badly his current avatar behaves. He can't have back what he gave to me. It's beyond his reach. All he can do is throw an almighty tanty, which I hope we are in about the middle of, and then he can go his disgusting way apart from what mechanics need to remain in place around our kids.
Part of my new homework is practicing my poker face .......
❤️😘💋 ...... to you all
Edited ...... the auto-correct faery put a hand in here.
