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Hello @oceangirl

Thank you for saying hi. 💐🌸

It is very hard @Snowie and really not what I want to re-visit. I know my GP would be completely against it too having seen what I went through last time. I don't feel there is any need to do it again as it would not benefit me currently. In order to move forward I need to leave the past in the past - there will always be times I have those flashbacks and nightmares but they are less frequent than they used to be at present. I also know that dealing with this loss is going to be a longer term prospect and that I do shut down to deal with loss of any kind. Leaving the funeral until the holidays to watch is essential right now but when that time comes I do know it is going to be really hard. I need to watch it as I still cannot believe it but doing it now and trying to get through work as well is not an option.

Today the a/principal had a talk to the kids about some personal stuff - I found myself having to be very mindful of what she was saying and how I was reacting ...it was quite triggering. I took the kids outside afterwards - as much for me as them - we all needed some fresh air and a break. It is those kind of things that I have a lot of trouble coping with but I am able to deal with them a lot better.

Had snuggles with Tobes on the couch watching footy tonight so it has been relaxing ...and what I needed. Now hoping I can sleep and tackle tomorrow when it comes. Hugs to you Hon

@Faith-and-Hope thinking of you Hon 💕😘🌹

Thanks @Appleblossom I do know what effect it would have on me and not prepared to go there again - just too hard and not necessary for me to move forward. Hugs and hugs to you

❤️🦋🌹 @Zoe7 .....

💐👋💕 everyone

@oceangirl We will be right there with you whatever you decide. Take care and look after yourself my friend. Love peaxx

@Zoe7 it is good knowing your limits and what you can and can't cope with at the moment.

Leaving watching the funeral until the holidays seems like a wise decision. Please just remember we will be here for you when you make that difficult decision to watch it.

Hoping you got some sleep last night and today is a good day for you.

Lots of love and hugs 💜💜

Sitting with you @oceangirl whilst you make that big dicision.

@Faith-and-Hope @Bunniekins @Anastasia hoping you day goes well 💛💛

Hi @Zoe7

It's always good to see you - and I have had telehealth calls and I think medical calls are one thing but psychological calls are better face-to-face because a lot comes from seeing the other person's expression

And it's harder wearing masks too - my support workers tell me that they are wearing their masks with all their clients and this can be really hard - esp if the client is a lip-reader - time does pass though and things will change

Personally I think exposure therapy would be a tough call and maybe it has it's place but we all have a past and after a time we deal with it the best we can - I would not like to go back and be further exposed to the painful time in my history and it seems pretty obvious you don't either and you are smart enough to know whether this is helpful - I wish you the best with the therapy you do have - I think you are like me and get the most out of it - and you know when there has been enough

I'm not a morning person either - but I am improving. I am going to bed earlier and sleeping better and waking up earlier - this has been since I had the magic needles in my shoulder which I need to be careful with but life is so much improved

I had a phone call from my daughter - she is walking with an A-Frame in hospital and is going to rehab soon - it is really hard not being able to see her at all - she is getting plenty of phonecalls though - the lock down is going to bite us all in different places and to different degrees but this is our life right now. It has been tough for everyone but I still support the politicians regarding this - who would want to catch this clever, fast moving virus and I certainly don't support any conspiracy theories - but people are entitled to believe in them if that helps

All the best with your work Zoe - teaching is such an important profession -

Dec

I hope your day is the best it can be

@Snowie @Owlunar

@Faith-and-Hope