Far and Away

Good morning @Faith-and-Hope I finally slept last night - around 9 hours all up with only getting up once during the night, then a couple of more hours after I fed the fur babies. I could honestly sleep more but have to do a few things today first - a trip to the supermarket the priority then a little more sorting out of things. Not going to head into the city - that amongst other things around the house can wait for now.

Not surprisingly I have a headache again but meds, rest and time should help.

How are you today Hon?

BTW - my online order has already been shipped so hopefully I will receive it before I go back to work - yea!!!

Hey @Former-Member I had a similar experience with some of my previous meds - too many tried to count over 2 years but finally found a combination of ones that have not only worked but given me some quality of life back. I am not saying keep trying but more letting you know there are so many that can be tried and it is possible to find ones that work. I fully understand your fears though as the side effects of some are severe.

Sending you lots of love and soe squishy hugs for now Hon

ha ha yes my sister @Zoe7

I think we need to rename Smoky to Shadow @Sans911

he is just soo cheeky, adorable

now he follows us for 100 minutes having pats and etc

and then he hops on his bed when we wash the floor and leave

haha @Shaz51 Tobes should be named shadow as well - and so should @Snowie 's Izzy - they are such wonderful company for us - and I am so pleased you get that love from Smoky each week too

they sure are @Zoe7

@Snowie, how is our Izzy going ??

I think I'll be ok @Zoe7

Yes, too scared to try any others. I'm so glad that you found some meds that help you, Zoe. Remarkable really, that you're back at work etc.

I've been trying different meds since I was in my 20's and that's a long time ago, lol 😝

I read a really good book by Dr Amen, a psychiatrist who has studied the brain. It's about adhd/add. I was diagnosed with adhd as a child. Now it's add. That combined with CPTSD etc is tricky.

In the book, Dr Amen said that he found that anti depressants didn't help people with adhd/add. So, that makes sense to me. They make my symptoms worse. So I was pleased to read that.

Anyway, I hope you are having a good day. I'm making beef and veggie soup. Didn't eat much yesterday.
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That does mke it really hard for you then @Former-Member That book by Dr Amen sounds informative - I might need to take a look at it too 👍

I could do with some beef and veggie soup - it is quite cold here this week - only got to 9 yesterday and I was feeling it ...both fur babies spent the day inside - even too cold for Cat to wander around the garden

Hope the rest of today is easier on you Hon 💖💖💖💖💖

Hi @Faith-and-Hope

Thanks @Shaz51

Hi @Zoe7

Thanks.

I'm in touch with my neighbour/ friend - yet she does not do phone calls, & only occasionally replies to text (sms) messages.

She's at the back of me (high fence).

We only see each other & talk, when we arrange to meet - every few months or so.

She said she is comforted by knowing that if she had a health emergency (or other) - I could come over to help.

I am comforted by the same thought - that she would come to help me, if she could.

My back neighbour is very friendly with both her side neighbours - so she has support if she needs it.

My side neighbours (both) either want to scream at me for no reason (anger management issues) - or throw branches & stuff over the side fences (into my yard).

So no care or support there (with those people).

As much as I enjoy catching up with my back neighbour - I need to develop more frequent contacts/ friendships.

That has never happened, or hasn't happened consistently - since my marriage ended, 10 years ago.

That's when I lost virtually every friendship (social contact) all at once - which was almost a tougher blow, than having my marriage relationship end (or at least on top of it).

We will get there (somehow) - except "Where is there" (the destination)? I ask.....

Still trying to get myself to go out somewhere enjoyable (today), other than just shopping - so far with no success yet...

Adge

I did know it was only one neighbour and the others have been quite angry/nasty to you over some time @Adge I do not know why people need to be that way - they obviously have their own issues but taking things out on other people is both rude and stressful

I hear you about those wider contacts and getting out and doing things. It is hard after so long to find the strength, energy or even the knowledge of how to do that. Is there a bird group maybe around you could join - start with something you are both interested and very knowledgeable in.

I suppose the question of "where is there" is a really individual one ...for me it was returning to work and now I have done that it is building up the new curriculum for art. Once I have that underway it is maintenance of my mh along with a work-life balance again as I know the rest of this year doing 2 roiles at work will be really full on. My psych in the past has encouraged me to go out and meet new people but I honestly do not want to. I have never had an issue with relating to people or getting on with a wide range of people but I do have fears of getting close to people and then getting hurt (as has happened so much in the past). Life for me is easier on my own - and I actually like it like that. I do get out more in summer but again mostly doing things on my own. So for me the 'destination' is balance and happiness in my little world around me - and I am fulfilled with that.

Yes. It's a great book @Zoe7

I borrowed it from the library.
9C is really cold for the day. We get that occasionally at night.
I loved New Zealand's weather. Loved rugging up. The ideal would be to spend summer over there.
I've never been to Tasmania. Looks lovely. An old friend recently bought a home in the middle of Tasmania. I don't see her often. Like you, I tend not to get close to people anymore. Hoping that will change.
Hoping to do volunteer work some time. But at the moment I'm not getting a break from dramas. D and hubby are my priority now. A day at a time is all I can think about.
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Leaving New Zealand 🇳🇿