Far and Away

Been a very hard couple of weeks @Faith-and-Hope I thought having the kids back was going to be the hardest part but boy was I wrong Feels like everyone and everything has been against me lately and history just repeating itself with no-one to trust and no-one to turn to. Thank goodness I have an appointment with my pdoc this week ...if it is not cancelled - the way my luck is running I wouldn't be surprised.

Sounds like you have been running on empty again Hon - I get that it is what we do when we get started but please look after yourself too

❤️🦋 I am resting now Hon, and I did sleep for a few hours this morning.

@Zoe7

Partly about boundaries @Faith-and-Hope and partly about how my mother continues to support the abuse in my sister's relationship and then with my sister on how hard it is for me to continue to hear about it. She says he has gotten better but still so hard for me to hear it when I cannot talk about anything myself - it is a one way conversation tht always leaves me feeling both sad for her and on my own myself.

Re-traumatising is an understatement Hon - I just wanted to die. I was low enough as it was so it was the final nail for me. Now need to drag myself back up again but I know it will take time as there is still a lot to deal with. The work related stuff can be sorted - just not sure how right now. Luckily I have a wonderful team around me at work and a great Principal - and I am okay to say I am not okay with them and know they will be supportive. I wish I had some sick leave left because I don't feel like being at work but then that is probably the best place for me too with the kids.

I am so glad you got some sleep @Faith-and-Hope ...and resting now. You know I worry about you

More hugs incoming @Zoe7 ..... ❤️🦋

That does sound really tough ..... but hopefully you have broken ground with your Mum and sister, and they will help to support you in the way you need.

I am sorry, but after what happened with my soon2bX and what I am learnnng about NPD ..... not that I have a diagnosis but the behaviours are so closely aligned that it helps me to learn about NPD as a coping mechanism ..... I don't hold much hope for your sister's situation. It sounds like an unhealthy pattern of the sort I experienced, and if that's true, he will shower her in a golden glow occasionally to keep her hooked on a false perception, believing a facade, and mirroring her values every now and then so she thinks they are his too.

I don't hold much hope either @Faith-and-Hope and there are certainly parts of their relationship that are similar. The other side is that he would not survive without her as she does so much of his work for him. He is not good with paper work at all but he also will never learn if she does it for him whilst having a job herself - it is very complicated. On the positive side their new kitten has seemed to mellow him a little and he absolutely adores the little fluffball.

@Zoe7 @Faith-and-Hope

Lots of hugs, love and big feelings 💌💌💌

If I stop responding it might be a face-plant @Zoe7 ....

I cooked double dinner last night (triple actually cos I took some to the kids) so I just got up and put that into the oven to heat, and set an alarm in case I do doze off.

I got finished what I needed to today, which was my part of a group assignment, and was hoping to start the next assignment tonight, but it might be enough to just eat dinner and go back to bed .... start again in the morning.

💜💕 @Sans911 ..... good to see you.

Very difficult days for our @Zoe7 with everything that has been going on ...... hopefully with a change of direction soon.

Thinking of you with the new start @Sans911