Just checking in.

Hey @CheerBear . I think I may have an inkling of some of what you are working through (or I could be way off the mark). I know you’ll work through what you have to in the best Cheerbear way. I’m so pleased that things 'out there' are going so well. I have been pretty inspired by the way you go through things and I’m learning and growing though it too.

Im not really sure what clicked for me but something has. I have been finding and holding onto little bits of identity again. Some of the 'me' I had lost in the darkness I think are coming back slowly, there were no bits of me that I thought were ok in the darkness. Just lately I’m looking at the world through new lenses although I think some of them are old ones I’d buried too. I just wanted to share this with you as some of your cheerbearness of how you approach tricky things is rubbing off in a way that I think is really helpful. I’m hoping not to add to any trickyness but was feeling grateful as well. I have my psych appointment tomorrow and it feels like she’ll meet someone she hasn’t met before. I credit her with much of my shift too. ( @Faith-and-Hope , @Zoe7 , @Sans911 and anyone interested).

Anyway, I will leave you to work through your stuff. I’m about to have mashed banana brain again now as I need to sort through some of my heavy legal stuff. Best wishes 💜🤗

@Teej @CheerBear So pleased that things off forum are going so well for you both. It truly is heartwarming to hear about both of your lives and the massive steps you have both made in recent times ...you both inspire me with the way you work through things and are finding some enjoyment in your respective lives.

@CheerBear I am so sorry that things seem to be tricky here right now - I have no idea why but know it would not be because of anything you have done or said - you are a very caring, inclusive and compassionate bear of cheer and I love and value your input here so much. If there is anything I can do to help you out with the present tricky then do not think twice about taggin me or bouncing anything off me Hon. Many hugs and much love coming your way ...and to you also Teej

@Teej @Faith-and-Hope I had also wondered if lj had left but wasn't 100% sure, It is really sad for us here but certainly hoping that she is safe and is able to move forward in her life in a positive way. We will of course miss her dearly but some decisions need to be made for oneself although that does mean that we here will really miss her. One day she may find her way back to us but all we can do now is hope and pray that she is doing okay.

@CheerBear 💕💕💕💕

💜💐🌷💕 @CheerBear .... missing you 😔

Leaving some love here for you both @Teej @CheerBear and lots of these 💐

Hey @Zoe7 . I’ve finally got back here to respond to your posts. Thanks for all the kind wishes. I was so glad that the post where I mentioned you in the past helped give perspective from where you were in the darkest of times. I always feel a bit scared posting about someone else but it really had connected with me.

My psych appointment went went pretty well today. I also got the security from her that she’ll keep me on as her patient. I have been a bit scared knowing community health that time can be up and I could never afford to see a psych privately. She helped me with some really heavy things too around the legal stuff and that situation.

I know that things feel heavy on and on and off (especially around having si again) for you too but I’m so glad you are slogging it out. I’m so glad you have the supports you do too. I have been much much better but it still sneaks in now and then.

I also related to the post about your mum. My parents are very much like that too. Breaking away from it is hard. I’m starting to stand up more and we have a much better relationship now. It’s taken a while though. Sorry it has taken me so long to get back to you. It’s been a heck of a few days but I’m still here too, that’s something that in the past I would have ended up in hospital for. 💜🤗

Hi @Teej I was more than happy for you to include me in your post - we learn from each other and if a little of what I have dealt with helps then more thanhappy for others that may be able to relate to that to use it as an example.

I have seen such great growth in you too Hon and it has been wonderful to watch. You have that same inner strength that has helped you get through some of those extremely difficult times - and I have seen that build up even more so over the past couple of months. It does help having supports around us that we know we can rely on and it is lovely that your psych is being that for you. It sounds like you have a pretty good relationship with her and she is helping you through a lot - that is all we can ask of our supports.

Relationships with family can be really tricky and it seems both of us have become more confident at standing our ground and speaking up for ourselves in regards to our mothers. I do feel my relationship has changed over the last couple of years. I am still very guarded and keep her at a certain distance but will now stand up for myself when I don't agree with her - that is a big step forward for me. I am also conscious that she is getting older and there will be likely more times she will need help with things that her or Dad cannot do. Right now there is still things I cannot do either and have to tell her that sometimes I am not well enough but I am getting better at that too. I need to look after myself as well.

Today was a really good day at work so no SI tonight - first time all week - so a win for today that I am happy to take. Hoping that also equates to an early night and sleeping throughout the night.

How has your day been?

@CheerBear Also thinking of you Hon and very much missing seeing you around. Much love and hugs for both you and Teej

Trying not to be annoying but hoping you are ok @CheerBear .💜🤗