Just checking in.

@Former-Member. All done. All I have to do tomorrow is an Online OH&S program.

Unfortunately, the site is playing up, so I can't do it tonight.

But that just means more time on here.

How is everything with you @Former-Member?

Love your cocky picture @utopia I love birds 🙂

Gotta love ohs stuff... we had to watch a video in staff meeting last year on something ridiculous and the ethics of not 'stealing' from your workplace lol it had examples like people using paper clips at home or photocopying something for personal reasons... staff had a few laughs...

things are not so great internally, just very low and exhausted.

are you looking forward to working?

lj

I love the cockies @Former-Member. They are my favourite birds. I love their noisy screeching and their colours and watching them fly overhead. I feel calm when they are around. Strange as they are noisy and distructive. Maybe that says something about me!!!!! Don't think i'll self evaluate that.

I'm sorry you are not feeling the best. Are you feeling high levels of anxiety at the moment? It does seem to be the season for an increase in our moods, and their strength.

Are you able to do anything to reduce the severity, or to calm yourself some? Or are you like me, and just sometimes have to try and ignore how you are feeling, just to get through?

I'm hoping tomorrow will be a better day for you.

I had a corella who was rescued at school and couldnt fly. He was so beautiful. He learned to talk and played with the kids toys in the back yard. They have such beautiful personalities.

Yes i'm just trying to get through each day at the moment. ignoring the anxiety as much as i can. but also struggling with feeling very low all the time, and not being able to sleep 😞

lj

Corellas are beautiful intelligent birds @Former-Member. I love them.

I had a pet galah. Named Yarra. I was going to call him Barak after William Barak, the leader of the Aboriginal people of Melbourne and the Yarra Valley, but then Barak Obama became president of the USA, and I thought that would confuse people and they would never pronounce my birds name right. So I wanted another iconic Australian name, so I chose Yarra after the Yarra River and Yarra Valley.

He could talk a head off a chicken. He never stopped. I was even teaching him to speak another language, my ex husbands language and he had already learnt to say Namaste. lol.

And after all the times I told my boy to make sure the windows and doors were shut when Yarra was out of his cage and flying around the house, I was the one who left the back door open. He flew straight out. We put posters up everywhere. But trying to find a Galah, when there are flocks of wild ones everywhere. Well it was impossible.

My son and I still miss him, and 6 years later, when we see a galah, we call out, 'What you doing, Yarra". But so far, no bird has ever responded back. Still sad after all these years. I just hope that because he was still young and was just starting to become hormonal, lol, that he may have been able to find a mate and join a wild flock. I don't want to think of the alternative.

I'm sorry you are not sleeping well. I know when I wasn't sleeping much last year, it made it so hard not to be depressed. It made it hard to fight through that depression.

It was only when I went to hospital and was put on sleeeping tablets, and finally got some decent rest, that I could then focus on coping tecniques to help lift me out of my depression and start working on me.

My memories not good, so I'm sorry if you have told me this before, but is there any medication your psychiatrist or gp can recommend, short term even, to help get you the sleep your body and mind is craving?

@utopia yes.. our corella (who lived free out side but let himself inside or inside his cage when he wanted to just disappeared one day and i could never find him 😞 He was named russell but a collegue at school as a joke and it just stuck. I miss him still too.

My gp left suddenly last year and not sure about finding a new one.. i have a lot of history and... crud following me. my support worker came today for first time since xmas and she is going to email psychiatrist (i cant contact him myself.. silly system through hospital community mental health) to see if he will do soem scripts for meds for me. my usual stuff just isnt enough. im just drowning at the moment. i cant take this particular med when im working as it really affects my ability to function during the day.. so im hoping that it wont take forever to get a script (my psychiatrist is also 5 hours away coz im country so I 'see' him by telemed conferencing which i hate.. and he'll post out scripts).

@Former-Member @Former-Member @Kurra @Former-Member @TAB @faith-and-hope @overtheedge @bluebay @appleblossom and everyone.

Guess what? 11 oclock at night and I go out for a cigarette and I step on a bee. That's right. The bees are swarming around my outside light. This is the second time in a week I've been stung.

My foot is swelling up big time.

I'm feeling pretty accident prone at the moment. And sore and swollen. lol.

If I had the money now I would have someone cut down this giant tree in my backyard that is absolutely covered in flowers and bees.

For some reason, the bees appear to be getting drunk or something off this tree. They fall to the ground and wander around.

The tree is some type of Hybiscus. It is way over 2 storeys high.

So frustrated. So I grab my smokes and go out the front instead. Thank god it was right it my vision of sight - I almost walked into a massive spider web. But I saw the Orb Spider first. I'll fix that tomorrow.

So I have Ice in a teatowel and the heeby jeebies from the spider web and all I can hear in my head is the buzzing of bees.

So on that note, I think it's time I go to bed.

@Former-Member. That's such a hard way to get help for MI.

I skyped with my psychiatrist, but that was okay. Only had about 6 sessions with him via skype coz I was feeling a lot better, and because most of my work is done with my psychologist.

I'd be lost without my psychologist. I'm lucky because mine is paid for by WorkCover. Because it is so hard to find a good therapist who will bulk bill. As I'm sure you know.

But hopefully the psychiatrist from the Mental Health Team will write out your scripts tomorrow and fax them through to your pharmacy.

It's impressive that you are still lworking. And although it must be hard at times, I think working helps with our mental health. Keeps us engaged in the world and doing things.

Well, I'm sorry, but I have to log off now. My foot is starting to really sting and is swelling from the bee sting. So I'm going to call it a night and go to bed. And hope that tomorrow there are no more bee attacks. lol.

I hope you manage to get a few good hours sleep tonight.

Sweet Dreams. and thanks for sharing your story about Russell. Birds are just wonderful pets to have around.

Oh no @utopia you poor thing... ouch, hope the swelling and pain isnt too bad by morning. i have a good psychologist so im lucky that way too. she's not back till next week though. and not sure how long the psychiatrist will have off or not..

i'm so scared of going back to work but we'll see.

I hope you get a decent sleep tonight

lj