not feeling good

@BlueBay Then cry if you need to, you’ll feel heaps better - it’s the way our brain gets those happy hormones into our system.

I just had a meltdown, chastising my mother like she’s a 5yo - dementia is a real bit€h, then I took something out to the recycle bin and bawled my eyes out while staring at the assorted recyclables.

I feel better, enough minutes have passed that she’s forgotten all about the argument, happy hormones are doing their thing - win win.

I know it’s not as simple as all that and I’m not trying to make light of how

you feel - but sometimes all you can do is let it out and have a good cry. Take care @BlueBay ❤️❤️

Evening @MDT @Gazza75 @outlander @Razzle @Former-Member @Owlunar @Meowmy

@BlueBay I'm so pleased for you that you went to your psychologist appointment and you were able to let some relief from crying first thing as they say crying is good for us, even though it doesn't feel that way at the time,and just to take baby steps, sounds like you have a caring psychologist. I understand how you feel after going there,it's like a shock to our system while our minds realize what you have just done and feeling like your body is breaking down. I hope you can have a peaceful sleep.

Just remember you are very brave and if you are able to do a little bit each day as they have asked you to, if it's bringing up anxious emotions please come on here and let us know, as we are all here for you no matter what it is cause I find when where going through a rough patch it is so easy to block everyone around you out and not wanting people to know how bad we are feeling.

That's why I love about our forum SIGHT here for no matter what it is going on in our lives and how bad we get, we are all very good friends here and we care so much about each other we know no matter how hard it is we never get judged we get support, helpful suggestions and comfort 24/7 to help us at a time most needed, and if it's not help but just someone to listen to what your going through we can do that to.

Another shocking night eith a bad headache. Had to go to wirk as it’s first of month and I had to do all these reports for our book keeper. Lady normally does them is on holidays. Ive never done them before but I finally did it.

Having lunch now. Back very soon.

Hope everyone is doing ok. @saturnzoon @MDT @Razzle @Gazza75 @outlander @Former-Member @Owlunar @Shaz51

You're having a rough time @BlueBay

And you are plouging your way through it - you can't see that you are strong and improving but we can - a while back this would have been overwhelming for you - you would not have managed but now - with a splitting headache you have achieved the reports for the bookkeeper - not easy to do that - the bookkeeper will appreciate it and that is a big pat on the back for you

Let's see if I can find one

Well - no pat on the back but medals - yes!!

Whatever helps - it's worthwhileLife would be so much easier without all the stuff on the way - but would be it worthwhile?

I can only consider things from my point of view and I am sure - I haven't enjoyed the rough spots but I appreciate what I have learned

Dec

@BlueBaywrote

She wants me yo tune into my inner child daily snd just see whst comes up for me.

I now feel like I’ve been hit by a bus.

Hiw much more of this can I do ??

Hi @BlueBay

You will do this as long as you feel it's helping - I think -

I know the last time I saw a therapist I had enough of picking around in the past - I had paid enough in cash, in my privacy, my emotions, in my time -

It was a bright and shiny moment but also tiring - exhausting - fed up and totalled - I have always been able to see both sides of my life - some shades of grey - some all colours but that day it seemed as if someone had put too many hundreds and thousands onto the icecream and stirred it up and it was yucky - mostly - and I was done

And hopefully you will have such a mixture of colours and emotions - you will see the truth and the crazy puzzle for what it is and let it go

And this doesn't change the truth - accepting it doesn't make it okay - the change is in ourselves and we know what happened will always be awful but we can learn to go on and live the life we need to - that we want to - that we choose -

And - be better people because of it

It's exhausting going through the past and crying - but crying is okay - tiring, hurts our eyes and stuffs up our sinuses and make our heads ache - but it's normal

We can cry for the hurt child within us - and find that gutsy child that survived -

You still are that gutsy survivor - other things happened to blur you concept of yourself - painful - yes - but surviving does cost us a lot

How long will it take? When will you see the path - see yourself? I don't know but it will happen -

I hope I get to know about it

Dec

Good on you for getting it done my sister @BlueBay

hope your headache goes away soon

Hi everyone

@Shaz51 @Owlunar @MDT @saturnzoon @Razzle @Gazza75 @ali1 @Former-Member

I’m feeling sick in the stomach. Can’t eat much. Feel like I’m going to faint.

Headsche won’t go away. Spoke to my doctor this morning. He thinks it’s all my mentsl health and stress.

My mental health is making me feel physically sick.

Hi @BlueBay , that's not good,, not good at all.

Perhaps some warm milk might help settle your stomach.

Have you tried to take something for the headache?

Did you manage to sleep alright last night?

If it's not to cold maybe you can sit outside and get some fresh air and sunshine.

Worried about you.