not feeling good

Morning everyone @Shaz51 @MDT @Meowmy @Faith-and-Hope @Ali11 @Former-Member @Owlunar @Razzle @Zoe7

I am off to wirk soon. I’ve realised this mirning thst I have high anxiety with reg to money. I am sooo scared to look at bank account balance as it increases my anxiety to sky high. I dread at the thought of going on internet banking.

I cant ask hubby to do this for me as I have so many times and he just won’t.

I don’t even go to the letterbox. I get so scared and anxious.

And when I do go on the internet I panic when I press the button to open up my accounts.

I don’t know how to cope with this.

Hi @BlueBay

I can see from my weather app that the weather in Melbourne is reallly bad so that will not improve your mood at all - and the holiday you are having in a few weeks must look very good to you when you are not overwhelmed with your current issues

What is it about your bank accounts that scares you so much? I understand being short of money but if you are both working and not spending more than necessary it seems you know the balance of your accounts without looking - so I think it must be Huffnpuff and the way he cracks it when there is not enough cash available -

And that - my dear friend - is a form of abuse - it's not your fault that things are the way they are - you are doing the very best you can and what else can you do that is reasonable?

It's really bad that he takes things out on you the way he does, perhaps he really feels there is more he could do about this - like take an evening or a weekend job - but I hear you - he won't and he isn't even into talking about it with you which stinks

I read about the coffee thing with him - really rotten behaviour - yes - time to stop making his coffee if he is so picky - I lived through a lot of that with my ex so I do hear you.

I have to go and get a coffee myself - I like it better when I get it from the cafeteria - I think you are at work today so I will be in touch later

Sending hugs - wishing things were better for you

Dec

I really hate been at wirk

ignored

left to be on my own.

Shits me how people treat each other

actually I don’t want even want to be here snymire as in life

why are some people not tslk to me

roll on 2pm so I can go home and hug my bsby granddaughter

i hate this

everything is getting me down

@Owlunar @Shaz51 @MDT @Faith-and-Hope @Gazza75 abd others reading this

💙🐚 @BlueBay ....

I'm listening @BlueBay and I hear you. 👂 Sending you the strength to ignore others poor behavior. 💪

Love to you 💜

Sherry

Wow @BlueBay

It really does sound as if you have had enough - it's time for you to make a decision

Everything seems to be rushing at your atm - money - Huffnpuff - the people at work - it's not good news at all

You need to make some choices right now - if you need time to yourself you need to make sure you get it

I am really concerned for you and nothing is as valuable as your life - truly - that is your most important thing

It's time to get some help and not just listen to other people's opinions - including mine

All the best

Dec

Hey @MDT

I just hate when co workers ignore me snd just tslk to themselves and always leave me out of the conversation

i feel left out. I was very quiet at work. I just did what I had to snd then came home at 2pm.

I have a terrible headache.

Hi @Owlunar @Former-Member @Faith-and-Hope

I know basically how much I have in the bank. But I get so anxious. I think I panic because I know that hubby gets annoyed and angry when there’s literally nothing left. I hate when he cracks it. I feel it’s then a reflection on me because I don’t wirk enough.

At the moment I have a lot of guilt

and it’s bevsuse I have a mental illness and csnt contribute to more

I never asked for this

no one ever does

guilt is huge

I have so much on my mind

too much

oh I just wish I could go away

Hi @BlueBay. It's can be hurtful to feel ignored by others. You've done well to finish your work shift and manage those feelings there til 2pm. As a reminder, if you're concerned about your safety or you'd like counselling support, you can reach out to the following services:

Lifeline: 13 11 14 or Crisis Chat

Suicide call back service: 1300 659 467 or online counselling

Take good care of yourself today and please do reach out for support if you need to.