not feeling good

@BlueBay, I agree with everythng @Owlunar has said.

People here will support you no matter what you decide to do.

You are definitely the glue in your family and stronger than you give yourself credit for. They are so lucky to have such an amazing and caring person as you. You need to do what's best for you.

Hugs

@Gazza75 @Owlunar @Meowmy @Faith-and-Hope @Former-Member @Shaz51 @Ali11

Ok so I walked with my d snd granddaughter. We walked for 30 mins but I don’t feel any happier or better.

Home now. Everyone is home = noisy and chaos.

You know Whst I just made hubby and myself a coffee. Oh just because I didn’t put the milk before the water he was annoyed because apparently “the ciffee tastes crap”. I was so tempted to throw the coffee out. But I said we’ll make yourself another one.

So he has now thrown it out. Well from now on I’m not msking his coffee. He can make his own bloody coffee.

I’m needing to go away. I wish I was strong independent to just go away. But I’m not that person at all.

You know what I’m sick and tired of being the one to fix everything. I can’t fix things anymore. I can’t fix myself.

Im so angry znd dmotionsl.

Dont need yo reply I don’t expect snymire replies. Because I’ve been on here same story all day. You are all most likely sick of me.

I need to wirk out a plan to escape. I’m wanting to self harm. I’m angry.

And got a phone call before from community centre - I csnt see any other psychologist in the meantime. I have to wait until September. WTF!! How do I survive. Maybe I don’t.

@BlueBay hey BlueBay, May be organize family meeting, so to let your family know how bad you are feeling. Then you might get some support and care from them. If you keep giving them support and look after, you will run dry. Is there someone you can stay with for a while. Think some face to face tender loving care will help you. @Former-Member can please have any referral, information may be see someone quicker. Could you talk to your daughter how terrible you are feeling. Take care.

@BlueBay, None of us are sick of you. Worried, concerned, yes. We're here for each other.

I'm sorry everything seems to be piling up on you right now. It's not fair at all.

I can't write much now as I have to catch a train soon.

Sitting with you through this turmoil.

Hugs

Hey @BlueBay,

I can hear how intense things feel right now and you are just wanting to escape. That's great you went for a walk with your granddaughter. Sometimes things don't help our mood the way we want but it's important we keep trying. If you are wanting to self-harm it is really important that you contact a crisis or counselling support to help you manage. Here are some options:

Lifeline 13 11 14

Suicide Callback Service 1300 659 46

That sounds tough having to wait until September to see a Psychologist. If you are looking to explore some other options you could try the Sane Help Centre to discuss what might be appropriate. Another option is to try 1800 Bulk Bill as sometimes they can help link people with other affordable counselling or psychology.

Take care,

Tortoiseshell

Certainly not sick of you @BlueBay . But I am concerned about you, and feeling helpless due to my inability to help. I am just so sorry you are in this financial predicament which only serves to make everything else so much more difficult to deal with. Its good your GP wants to help, and its possible he is right about a hospital stay being unhelpful for you right now. I hope some of the suggested resources mentioned above can be accessed as you await Septembers psych appointment.

Sending a comforting hug to you.

Sherry

@BlueBay It sounds like you are going through a terrible time at the moment. Sending you massive hugs, I really do care about you my friend, and I wish you could feel better soon. ❤️❤️

ohhh my wonderful sister @BlueBay , sitting with you everyday my darling xoxoxxoxo

love and hugs xoxo

Sending love @BlueBay, we're feeling for you

Never sick of you @BlueBay Honey ..... just full of admiration, as are others here, that you get up every day and go in to bat again when things are so hard for you, inside and out .... you’re a real trouper, and an inspiration ..... ❣️

Keep rockin’ it Hon .... you’ll get there. BPD takes a long time and a lot of perseverance, but you’re doing it !!

Just keep swimming ..... and we are swimming with you ....

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