not feeling good

Good morning @BlueBay 🌹

I'm pleased to hear that you had a good chat with your Doctor this morning.

I too hope that your session with your psychologist is not as intense as last time. Perhaps they will go a little gentler with you today than last week .. I hope so.

How lovely that your son is visiting today and will be staying for an evening meal. Sounds like it will provide a bit of a boost to you all. Enjoy your day, and yes definitely update us after your appointment, if you get a chance. I know you will be busy though having your son visiting. So no pressure to check back in.

Sherry 💕

@Former-Member

Im not strong enough to keep going

my session was emotional but that’s me

a stupid sobbing person who can’t control her emotions

we talked fear of losing my support people

fear of getting better fir the reason above

my vulnerability and also my very negative thought pattern

it’s a life time of having these thoughts ingrained in me thst niw it’s so damn hard to shift

I don’t know @Former-Member i told the psych thst I don’t know my identity

she told me that at the moment my whole life is my mental illness and the labels attached to me. It is so strong in me.

I cried and cried and told her I have no outlet to tslk to anyone except my support team. She suggested maybe join a depression anxiety group where I could tslk and meet other people.

I told her I’m not good in groups but better one on one. We also discussed the last psych I had for 5 yrs and how he had gone over his boundary with a few things he said and did to me.

She was shocked and said it was very wrong of him as he the professional and obviously has his own issues.

Im exhausted and very teary.

I don’t know how to cope.

@BlueBay it is hard for you. You are doing your best. You are doing well, expressing yourself and your emotions. Things will get better, bit by bit.

I hear you my sister @BlueBay

You're more than your mental illness that is not you

Is there a facebook group for women in your area were you could meet others

I am about to take Kira to the vet and then going home and then heading out again- I will not be online until around 7.30ish.

Thinking of you

Hi @Meowmy @Shaz51 @Teej @Former-Member @confusedbpd

I’ve been having psin in my head. Dr thinks it’s neuralgia.

I’m going fir a walk a long walk

i need to get fresh air

feel like I’m suffocating

I’m sick of doing so many things

everyone just takes me for granted

@oceangirl @Meowmy @Former-Member @confusedbpd @Shaz51

@BlueBay hope you enjoy your walk. You have done so well, brought up there children, manage household and work. Don't worry too much. It will all come good.

@oceangirl hello. You are sounding good. Take care.

I’ve been mistreated and used as a client with the psychologist I had for 5 years. He went out of the professional boundary that affected me that night but still niw affecting. Didn’t realise it still affected me until tiday in my session.

I don’t snd csnt go into detail about the situation but I feel so stupid for not saying something. I was so vulnerable at the time snd he took advantage. I sm so angry at him.

But also angry at myself for allowing it and then copping verbal crap from him the following week.

Why do these things happen to me. Why me??

i needed to get this out. I’ve been blocking it fir a while.

my sister @oceangirl , hope Kira is ok xxx

Hello my sister @BlueBay , sending you tender hugs

hello @Meowmy , @Former-Member , @Teej

@BlueBay it will come good. I had an old psychiatrist who demanded a personal relationship with me and kept ringing me even after I left him. I was thinking about it a lot and may have resulted in many of my hospital admissions. But I have come good and don't think about him any more. He didn't end well. Later for some reason, he quit and left as well. So be happy

All will be good in time.