not feeling good

@BlueBay, my sister , love you soooo and sending you tender hugs . sitting with you always xxxx

@BlueBay you write beautifully, and sometimes the support button is enough. Don’t silence yourself because you don’t think you’re superior or that you feel useless - never let your words be silenced. That has happened to me a lot all my life, I actually lashed out at my husband last night for trying to silence me. You are not useless - you got me through today before I even started messaging you. You mean the world to me my friend ❤️❤️

Hi all,

I have been reading along the way and understand the pain you must be feeling with difficult family members.

I also struggle to writer in response to others.

But you are strong and will get through this

I know what you mean @BlueBay . So often I am the same, with no words that seem right. Under those circumstances, a support button is all that is necessary. It does not make either of us useless or inferior, it just means we know our limitations at that moment in time. That changes though, and I have seen so many wonderfully supportive and insightful posts from you. Just have patience in yourself. Besides .... you have had a really emotionally upsetting day. Give yourself a break.

Sending love and understanding.

Sherry 😀

That sounds like a heavy session @BlueBay, with potential to be quite healing We so often feel like negative talk comes from other people's opinions over the years, but it's far more likely to have come from us not loving ourselves the way we need to be loved. Hope that little you feels better after the hugs

Needing to ask others if they also feel like you don't fit in.

I have been struggling at work the last few months as I feel that I just don't fit in. I just get the feeling they can tell I'm different. Am I being paranoid I don't think so. As I'm not invited to have lunch with them and they walk to there cars together.

Due to my job I can just sense the have worked out my mental health as a fellow worker asked me if I thought a person had bpd.

I'm still waiting to see a psychologist should be soon.

Can I ask if others have bpd run in there family as I don't have contact with a lot of mine. Just one aunt and 2 cousin over the last few years. But I can see the traits and in one of my children

@BlueBay

Hi @BlueBay

It's a horrible day - and Melbourne seems to be getting the whole rainfull for Australia today. And it is so dark and right now I am getting hail. brrrrr

I slept late, got up even later - I am okay but I have so much heat running here atm - I refused to worry about that - getting cold is something I don't just hate - it can make my back pain worse so alas - more of the same is forecast - not good

During the darkest time in my life my parents rejected my son and me and I certainly remember feeling confused and alone in the world with this unhappy child who managed to get into so much trouble -

Hi again @BlueBay

I wrote the above yesterday but had to stop because of a severe thunderstorm and I didn't get back to it - getting up so late made the day go fast and time got away from me - wonderful that

I read about feeling abandoned when I was going through the info here on BDP - I am sure my son experienced that and although my family was rude to me and treated me in ways that confused me I didn't feel the need for their permission on how to raise my children - I am beginning to understand that when people have BDP it is a completely different experience than anything else I have experienced. I was very vulnerable at the time but my children needed me and I did what I could when I could - sometimes I would burn out and go to hospital for a few days to refuel - the way my parents behaved during that time was reprehensible - this is as near as I can come to understanding how you feel -

My father admitted his part in what he called a Terrible Injustice just before he died - my mother couldn't get that far though she said enough for me to know she had regret and a lot of it - I was vindicated but to this day I can't understand what prompted them to behave in that way. I can understand your confusion - I am trying to say I am beginning to learn - not just my son and you but other people with BDP -

It must have been hard for my son - harder - and I had to leave him in Juvenile Detention because he had broken the law in a serious way and it was out of my hands and this must have been terrible for him -

Thanks for asking about my son-in-law - he is going into hospital tomorrow and I will be ringing my daughter later this morning to check on things - he was told not to do very much this week so I guess he wasn't working -

Your writing is fine - there is no need to worry about that - and giving support via the button is fine - I don't always feel like writing much either - it depends on a lot of things

And you have enough on your plate right now recovering from your session with your therapist yesterday - that was a huge step - don't look for other things to bother about when you are so totalled - we understand here and one way we do is the way your write -

I think you are working today - I hope it goes well for you

Dec

I know it's Thursday but this pic always works

Aw @Razzle

I am so glad you rang your councellor and will seek legal advice - who knows what this controlling woman is about? It's a horrible situation and there is no need for that to happen

And as for your son - I am glad he has gone to his GP about this and is going to see a therapist himself - he is so young for all of this and it's a good thing and the right thing for him to do

I wish you and your family all the best -

Dec

Hi @Former-Member

Thanks so much for your kind comments - it is always a wonderful thing to get such positive feedback - I do my best to encourage people - I have lived a little longer than most here and my life hasn't been easy but if I can help other people it makes the tough lessons of my life feel worthwhile

Dec

We all need a little help from our friends 🙂