not feeling good

@Owlunar @Thanks for post. The scars of my previous severe MI are serious, fears of going insane again, fears of the uncontrollable anxiety comes back up, fears being insane and alone in the world, not able to fend for self and no one to look after. Fears of having no dignity at all.

The good thing is nothing lasts forever here on Earth. We all die in the end. One day all sufferings will stop and hope the next world is something beautiful like the light we know within us.

Hi @Owlunar

I’m so happy that you are close with your daughter. And she brings you lots of joy.

My blood pressure is still fluctuating but I’m ok for now. Just annoyed at hubby tonight.

I better go I need some time

Hugs to you @saturnzoon thinking of you ❤️

Hugs back @BlueBay , I know how you feel with money situations and like you I get embarrassed saying it as well. I used to have credit cards but got into debt with them years ago since then have never had one since, as i had to go bankrupt and still have another 2yrs to go.

Will give salvation army a try @Meowmy thank you.

Hi @saturnzoon @Meowmy @Zoe7 @Owlunar @Former-Member @Razzle @Faith-and-Hope

@Shaz51

just had a session with hubby and my psychologist reg. Communication.

Im so angry I csnt tslk.

I will have to tell you all later

I wish I wasn’t here snymire.

Doesn't sund like it was a good session @BlueBay

Awww @BlueBay ... deep breaths my friend ... lots of them. Let things settle before making any rash decisions or saying anything to hubby that you may not mean.

Let us know when you're ready to talk about it. It may help once your anger reduces a little.

Sherry

Hi @BlueBay,

It sounds like that was an incredibly stressful session with the psychologist and your husband. It's okay if you don't feel you can express what happened right now. If you feel you need some support debriefing or keeping safe tonight just wanted to remind you of these numbers:

Lifeline 13 11 14

Suicide Callback Service 1300 659 467

Take care of yourself,

Tortoiseshell

@BlueBay @Former-Member @Zoe7 @saturnzoon @Owlunar @MDT @starflame Sorry to hear you don’t feel well. I had a very tough day. After seeing psychologist first time in my life. A lot of childhood trauma flared, but strangely after morning struggles, I had some peace in the afternoon, which hasn’t happened for twenty five years.

So @BlueBay may be with therapy, you will feel and get better.

For twenty five years, I struggle daily, hourly, minutely for my emotional survival. Fighting for my life from Suicide every single day.

At least, I had one afternoon peace. Hope you will feel better soon.

There is hope in all beings, growing to be more beautiful, fulfilled, radiant through sufferings, we hear your tender heart in pages of outcrying love, for the seasons to know your longing for peace and happiness. We are here through the toning waves of sufferings, when we gain a glimpse of restful harmony, we share moments of reaching offerings of friendship, may your deepest wish feel care and support.

We are not alone in our sufferings, there are souls waiting to hear the stories when lonely journeys of struggles enclosed.

I am glad I am back after whole morning afternoon absence.

Those moments of peace are wonderful to have @Meowmy