not feeling good

Good morning @BlueBay @Shaz51 @soft_edges @Former-Member @Faith-and-Hope

I hope you were able to knock the cold on it’s head before it started @BlueBay

@Shaz51 Like everyone else I had a pretty restless night too. As we went to bed I spoke to my husband about the lastest dream/flash back I had a few nights ago, and what my councillor had said about them. I also confided in him about some anxieties I have over the upcoming nephews wedding - my SIL will be there that I had a huge falling out with the night my father died, she’s a huge part of why my husband and I are doing couples counselling. One of my abusers from the group could quite possibly be at the wedding too. After all this talking I had weird dreams (not that I can really remember what they were about now) but they kept waking me up, then I’d be thinking about the close call yesterday and couldn’t get back to sleep for ages. This went on most of the night so feeling pretty blah now.

❤️ @Razzle

Hi @BlueBay. Just checking in to see if you are ok. Hope you had a good day - I hope the hunky doctor stopped by too 😊😊

Have been thinking of you ❤️❤️

❤️ @Razzle Xxxooo

Morning everyone @Razzle @Faith-and-Hope @Shaz51 @Former-Member @Owlunar @Zoe7

well my hunky gastroenterologist came in yesterday to see how I am and review results.

No gallstones but I have a slight fatty liver. Not concerned just need to watch what I can eat snd exercise

he has also increased my med fir stomach pain.

He’s going to do a gastroscopy either Monday or Tuesday. It will be done st 7-7.30am. Someone will come and get me and once I’m ok I can go back to my room.

I’m not feeling good with this cold thst has now turned to asthma. I had to get hubby to bring in my puffer with the spacer so I can use.

Last night I slept ok considering how I feel.

But this mirning my cough is very chesty and ribs hurt, as well a terrible headache.

Maybe they’ll let my physician know and he’ll come to see me.

One of the nurses said to me last night “gee you’re in a MH ward but you’ve got lots of physical issues. All these tests you’re having, from our ward.

I sort of felt put out. I felt thst Msybe I shouldn’t be here in this ward. Now I think the staff are thinking I’m wasting a bed that someone could have.

But for now I’m staying here I wasn’t well mentally when I came in and it’s just all the physical issues came after. Not my fault. Things happen.

Hope you all have a nice day 😊❤️

Good morning @BlueBay.

Glad dr 😍😍 called in !! 😁

Good news it’s not gallstones, and hopefully you’ll have more answers after the gastroscopy.

Im glad you got a reasonable nights sleep too. As far as feeling like you’re taking a bed from someone else, that’s rubbish. Just because you have a lot of physical issues doesn’t mean your MH issues go on hold for the duration. What was the nurse even thinking to say something like that.

You are exactly where you need to be. Your last few posts have been sounding far more positive than before you went into hospital. Physical issues aside, mentally you sound much better. As for the physical issues, you are still exactly where you are meant to be - if this nurse can’t help in treating both physical and mental, well then she’s in the wrong job.

Hopefully if you were able to get a reasonable sleep last night, then maybe your body will let you get some reasonable rest today too. Take care @BlueBay ❤️❤️

hello my sister @BlueBay , sitting with you xoxo

Hello @Razzle , @soft_edges , @Faith-and-Hope , @Former-Member

Hi @BlueBay

I am really glad you are in hospital right now and getting some of those health issues investigated - so much of this has gone on unattended medically that it would eventually all come to a head - and now it has - and yes - you are in an MH ward and that's where you should be so put any feelings of someone else needing it more out of your head because that was an unfair comment the nurse made to you -

If only she knew how you had been battling these last months - and how much in your life has been an upheaval - okay - poor nurses - actually have to do some physical nursing atm - okay -

You are okay - take one day at a time which is all any of us can do - and get all the rest you can while you are in hospital -

And getting off your medication is a hard ask and hard yards - perfectly normal to feel so rotten - and the medication has been making you feel different - going off it is going to be different - but as rough as it is I think this is something you have been wanting

I wish you the best - this time will pass and perhaps things will be better for you - I do hope so

Dec

Thanks everyone for your support.

@Owlunar @Shaz51 @Razzle @Faith-and-Hope @soft_edges @Former-Member @Zoe7

I slept all night which was good. I think taking double dose med fir stomach is helping because less psin.

Tiday I went home gir a while. Hubby my D and I took Ayla down the beach at 10.30am. It was warm and the water was wavy. Ayla loves sitting in her blue up bsby ring eith a seat. Then she just sat on the sand and played with her buckets and spade. Stayed fir an hour then home fir showers. It’s so nice to just sit snd watch Ayla. Her hand skills are amazing. The way she concentrates snd does things is great to see. It’s such a beautiful thing to see a tiny little being working out how to do things. She picks things up very quickly. Ayla was getting very tired so she had lunch then off to bed. She slept for 1 1/2.

I then decided I wanted to watch Bohemia raphosdy. My d bought it fir hubby a few weeks ago. Great movie.

By this stage it was 3pm and I came back to Hospital.

I feel thst the meds have stopped my emotions. I feel I csnt let anything out. It’s all numb. It’s strange. Will let my psych know.

Going home tomorrow for a few hours and will go to beach in morning for a little bit.

I’ve stsrtrd reading a book called Barefoot Investor. It looks interesting. Hopefully get some really good tips on how to save snd nit be in a financial rut like we are st the moment.

Hoping everyone is doing ok.

BB ❤️❤️❤️

❤️ @BlueBay