not feeling good

Hi @Owlunar @soft_edges @Former-Member @Razzle @Shaz51 @Faith-and-Hope @Zoe7 @CheerBear and others reading this

As you can see from my previous posts last night that I was terrible. Couldn’t get yo sleep. Kept crying then nurse came in at about 10.30 and suggested a warm shower. That made me cry even more.

The night nurse (really lovely one) came in to see how I was snd i lost it. Crying and telling her so much negative stuff. She made me look for a meditation on my phone. I tried thst snd ended up falling asleep.

At 4am sgsin the flood gates opened up. Crying wanting to sh wanting to punch kick anything I could grab hold of. Night nurse made a milo to drink snd agsin I tried the meditation. But I couldn’t sleep. So I sat up snd started to crochet. I finally got to sleep for an hour.

The hospital medical doctor saw me this morning reg stomach pain. He has ordered an ultrasound tomorrow morning and phoned the gastrointestinal consultant to come snd see me. He wants me to hsve a gastroscopy while I’m in here. Makes sense.

I’m feeling very flat. Moods changing quickly from depressed tears to being ok to then tears again.

waiting for my psych to come today.

@BlueBay

I hope you are able to catch up on some rest today. I have been thinking of you a lot lately. ❤️❤️

I hope today has been better than last night for you @BlueBay Hugs and hugs my little yellow flower

Thanks everyone for your support @Zoe7 @Razzle @soft_edges @CheerBear @Owlunar @Faith-and-Hope @Shaz51 @Former-Member

update -

this mirning I had to fast to have a upper abdomen scan. Had that done now waiting for results.

The gastroenterologist came in to see me. He is going to put me back on a med for pain. He’s ordered blood tests to check liver pancreas and bloods. And he will find out when there is an availability for theatre to do gastroscopy possibly Thursday or Friday. He will also take bioposy to check for a bacteria and also for cealiac.

So it will be good to have this done and find out what’s causing the pain.

Another terrible night. Woke up twice because of pain.

Up wt 4am reading my book but then fell asleep for another hour.

My s and d came to visit tiday. Ayla loves sitting on my bed and watches play school.

Sending you all lots of love and hope you’re all ok.

BB xxxooo

@BlueBay I hope all these tests bring you some answers, it sounds like you're really being put through the wringer! I'm glad you got to see the kids again today, they must be such a breath of fresh air. What are you reading?

@soft_edges I’m reading autobiography on Osher Gunsberg. He used his tv name as Andrew G. It’s an amazing book about his life of depression suicide recovery. His life on radio and tv. I’m nearly finished the book. Definitely recommend this book. Another book I loved reading was another autobiography on Anh Doh the Comedian. Laughed and cried with this book.

How has your day been?

Hi @BlueBay is it The Happiest Refugee by Anh Do? I loved that one. Yet to read Osher's book so interested in your thoughts. I've heard him on tv, radio and social media and he's (I was going to say a good ambassador, but I think he's an actual Sane board member ) He seems authentic and open.