not feeling good

Hi @Shaz51@Zoe7@Former-Member@Owlunar

i cant stand it right now.

I swear I feel like grabbing the keys to the car and drive and never come. To this pathetic life. It’s me and my stupid depression. No one gets me. I don’t even get myself. Why do I get so sngry.

I just don’t understand anymore.

I want to scream run and die

how was it at lunch time my sister @BlueBay and did you ring her back xxxxx

My blood pressure went up but was ok @Shaz51. Still worried it’s too low ❤️

what was it my sister @BlueBay xxxx

134/70 @Shaz51

im finding life really difficult st the moment. The scary thoughts of this year financially my damn depression and BPD. Nit much wirk. I

upset and angry and in a bad way at the moment. And couldn’t care less snymire.

I should want just go away. I want to run dnd fast.

my darling sister @BlueBay, that is good reading compaid to your other reading xxxx

it is down my sister xxxx

can you do something out of you coping box xx

I love to sit with you and have a cuppa

Hi @BlueBay

Its Sherpa09 here (one of the moderators on the forum). It sounds like you're having a really hard time at the moment, we want to assist you as best we can. In your recent post you mentioned that you 'want to scream, run and die', which is really worrying, if you are in immediate danger please don't hesitate to contact some of the numbers below, otherwise please let us know how we can best support you...

I've also sent a private email to you regarding this post.

Sherpa09.

Lifeline 13 11 14

Suicide Call back service 1300 659 467

Beyond Blue Support Service 1300 22 46 36

My life is ruined all because of me.

It’s sll my fault thst things are the way they are

im so pathetic

Dearest @BlueBay

You may currently feel that your life is ruined. But lives can be turned around, they can be improved It is only depression which is now telling you things cannot be better. Its your depression and your traumatic past which is telling you its your fault you are the way you are now. Everyone knows the cause of your anxiety and depression is most definitely NOT your fault. Pathetic? No ... never! You are a survivor BlueBay, someone who has gone through so very much, yet keeps on keeping on. You have made something of your life, despite the immense difficulties you face each and every day. Please do not give up. Your future life is still there waiting for you to take up the reins once again. We blame ourselves for way too much, I know I do too. Its hard not to at times. But I also know I'm being very unfair to myself by heaping blame upon myself for things I have had absolutely no control over. The blame game is a dangerous one, and we honestly need to let go of that. Give yourself a break, as I too must. Try to recall all the good you do, try to think of all the things you've done, and still have a desire to do. Remember that you are a good person, a courageous woman. And you're doing the best you can right now. Lean on your supports around you if you possibly can, allow them to hold you up while you need it.

Sherry

Hi @Former-Member

thsnks for your support. I just don’t feel validated anymore. I blame myself because it’s my BPD. I wanted to leave home yesterday.

I just don’t feel good. I’m exhausted. And my motivation to do stuff is zero. I think what’s the point in keep going. Lean on my supports. My doctor saw me today and I just cried. I’m so exhausted I just don’t know if I can keep going. Life sucks big time.

I know you’re struggling more than me. Hugs. I’m sorry you’re going through so much.

I am crying. Angry at the world