not feeling good

Hi @Razzle

I really hear you - I have had the same stuff when I was married and then when my ex-bf started the same stuff with my not doing anything right I would drop whatever it was I was doing and went out - notice these are both ex-something

Aw - that's terrible that you got a whipper-snipper for Christmas - who gives his wife a whipper-snipper for a gift when he already has one actually - what a waste of money

sigh - my life alone does have - or has had - lonely moments - it gets easier but yeah - it is hard work to leave a relationship esp if you really want it to work

Dec

@Owlunar, you don’t have to be alone to be

lonely, I’m surrounded by people but have never felt more lonely in my life.

If the yard was still my domain, the gift

would have been perfect, but my garden doesn’t hold any joy for

me anymore, so the gift is a complete waste.

I don’t know why I’m still with him, it’s a question I ask a lot. He is a good man, to everyone else, I think I let him get too comfortable and now we both realise he can’t keep doing it - habits are hard to change, but I wont put up with it anymore

I understand @Razzle - I worked and had people around when I was married but I was so lonely - I would work through the holiday period just to have something to do away from home - and other people kept telling me what a good man my husband was

But I was dying inside - yes - I do believe my husband was and probably still is a good man but he was silent and morose - it was like living with a statue - maybe worse - at least we don't expect statues talk to us and to have fun and go out with us -

I stayed for various reasons - having left once the idea didn't appeal but after our teenage daughter moved out I could stand it anymore and left

I don't feel loneliness much at all now - only when I have anniversaries etc - being alone isn't that bad - we can find our own joy and enjoy our own domain

I am sorry things are so tough Raz

Dec

I wish I was still in hospital not feeling great. Called my dictir before felt like I was going to faint. He told me to drink lots of water and take it easy. They’re open tomorrow so I’ll see how I go.

@Owlunar@Razzle@Shaz51@Former-Member@outlander

ohhhh big hugs my sister @BlueBay

Sorry to hear you are feeling unwell again @BlueBay. If you feel up to it, maybe a luke warm (or cool if the weather is hot like it is here) shower. And plenty of cool water. Do you have any watermelon or other cool fruits? But most important ... try to mentally chill out. With you in spirit.

As for your medical practice being open tomorrow .. Wow! Where are you located? I want to be there. Joke ... please dont answer that. 😀 Hopefully you wont need them, but its very reassuring to know they are there if needed.

Take care.

Sherry 💕

Hi @Former-Member it’s hsrd to mentally chill when I feel crap. Just had dinner and resting. Have to wait till midnight watch a few fireworks and then bed.

I’m still emotional. I just want to cry.

Ha ha yeah where I live is a tourist area. At the moment it is so so busy. Can’t go to supermarket because you can’t find a car park. Beach is packed so no point in going.

I think I’m really because I’m thinking to this year and it wasn’t a great year.

I wish you a happy and healthy new year.

@Razzle@Owlunar I understand what you both mean about hubby. @Razzle You could have written about my hubby.

Its just so hard. Wish I could just go to bed. Hide away.

Goodnight everyone. I’m hurting and emotional because of all my admissions to hospital last year. The financial pressures still exist. My health physically and mentally were very distressing and draining last year.

Good points - Ayla’s first birthday

my son graduating in police academy

as for my good points - can’t tecall any😢

im exhausted and don’t know if I can go through another year of continuous therapy. I’m just tired of the past 8 yrs.

i just hope things change this year. Even though I can’t see it.

Feeling very lonely. Is there anyone around.