not feeling good

Goodnight @BlueBay Hope you feel better tomorrow

Hi @BlueBay

I think it's stress - it sounds like stress - are you inclined to grind your teeth because that can cause pain in your jaw and headaches

It's pretty common btw - and maybe it goes around at this time of year

I know it's old adviced but take it easy when you can - when I have this I try a warm pack on that side of my head -

I hope you feel better today - this is a rough time of year for many

Dec

I’m just hopeless fragile and don’t want to keep going

life is crap

im sick of crying

I’m sick of these damn memories

I hate myself

I’m in bed sobbing I hate myself do much

I wish I wasn’t here snymire

@BlueBay. I am so sorry to hear about this heaviness, the pain that's turning inward and of course of all forms of heavyness self-hate is one of the hardest to manage. Our own inner abuser

Thank you for sharing, we all hear and hold your hurt here on the forums. As a reminder, if you're struggling with thoughts of SI or you'd like phone support, you can reach out to the following services: Lifeline 13 11 14 or Suicide Callback Service 1300 659 467

Would you be up for getting in touch with them today?

Just saw your post @Former-Member didn’t get a notification.

I don’t think they can help me snymire

see my life is one big mess from the day I remembered my childhood abuse😡

I hate myself for remembering and the hate for myself is huge. I’m a failure a hopeless Mum wife and daughter.

The last 9 yrs have been hell. I just can’t see a brightness in my life right now. 😢

I called my doctor before so he knows how I am. Nit much he can do either.

I’m sorry for posting but there is no one else I can talk to.

Loneliness is crap 😢

@BlueBaymy sister , hugs

talk away my sister xoxo

@Shaz51

I’m just over it all

I’m exhausted

I’m sngry hopeless and nit coping obviously

I’m looking fir another job fir a while and do you think I can find anything. No cause I’ve got depression and who wants to employ someone like me.

I’m wasting my time with everything

I an angry I want to sh

im sorry I shouldn’t bother you or anyone else

it’s my problem so I guess I have to fix it

but I csnt

all I can see is darkness

no light for me

I’m so hated

no one at wirk appreciates me

I do stuff snd they change it sll

whats the point in me doing it

I’m so bl....y angry

Hi @Owlunar

jaw is getting better. Another headache yesterday. Really struggling with my very low mood

Xxx

I hate boundaries

I hate this year and every other year

last 8 yrs

wheres the future

no new job

im so angry

financially scared

scared of future

self hste is bad

there’s no love at all

myself is going

I’m hurting

sick of this every single year

seeing MIL in nursing home laying in bed doing nothing

what life is that

day in day out

last 3 years

I can’t do this anymore

crying so much I can’t type

if no one reads this it’s ok

i had to write it down to release a tiny bit of anger

my heart aches

and I don’t even know why

what the hell is wrong

I should just go away and never come back

but I would miss my beautiful Ayla

Hey @BlueBay,

Have sent you an email to check in 🌸