not feeling good

hugs @BlueBay, @Razzle

Hugs @Razzle

hi @Shaz51@Faith-and-Hope@Zoe7

just come from doctors appt. a sobbing mess. I told him I’m going into hospital and he was ok eith thst. I told him last fruday wasn’t good. And that I was thinking of suicide. And that I was hopeless and guilty fir not been healthier stronger and wirk more. Told him we’re thinking of putting house on market. He said thst is going to add more stress!!! It’s sll my fault. I’m to blame. My issues snd mfntsl health snd no money are all my fault. 😥

@BlueBay I’m so sorry you are feeling like this. I feel terrible, I hope our last conversation hasn’t added to all your stress. I was very thankful for the information but not at the expense of your own health. I’m so sorry if I’ve made things worse for you.

There seems to be a lot going on in your life, please take care and look after yourself.

Sending hugs your way, and thinking of you ❤️❤️

No not st all @Razzle pls don’t think whst we spoke about triggered me. It didn’t. It’s just sll my stress in my life. Feel really depressed today.

Meeting up with a close friend for a coffee. Hopefully she’ll cheer me up.

Its just so hard at times. Life sucks xxx

@BlueBay ❤️❤️

Really stressed tonight

thinking we may need to sell our home.

Fir the first time in my life we bought a home on our own not having my parents influence. It’s tbe dream home I’ve always wanted. Just everything.

And now ....... well we may have to sell.

For the first time ever I thought I had control in buying our home. But now I feel like the control has gone. Only been in this house just over a year.

Now I feel like a failure. If it wasn’t for me we wouldn’t be in this situation.

When I told my doctor he was concerned about my stress levels.

I really don’t know what to do anymore @Shaz51@Faith-and-Hope@Zoe7@Owlunar

Hey @Razzle

have a look at “ bravehearts” They give information about reporting abuse to the police.

I’m thinking thst I would like yo let the police know you the names in case they are still abusing. A bit like what you’re saying. I don’t snd csnt go to court but I would love to give the police the names.

hugs @BlueBay , sitting with you

Thsnks sis @Shaz5 ❤️

Thanks @BlueBay, I’ll take a look. I’m a little bit la la at the moment, my day took a massive turn south and ended up having a full on panic attack and crying fit around 6.30pm. The anxiety has been brewing for a few days, and it all came rushing at me tonight.

Speaking to the police has been on my mind a lot lately, but I’m a jittery mess just writing it here. It’s so stupid, I’m a grown woman, I have the power now, but when I think about it I’m just that little girl filled with fear.

I see my councillor on Monday, I’ll bring it up with him then, this is something I‘m

going to need help with, I’m not going to be able to do this on my own.