not feeling good

I really need some help. Csnt see my psych fir another 5 weeks

nit seeing my psychologist for another 2 weeks

called my doctor this morning - he never returned my call

so much for him saying call and I’ll tslk to you or hrlp you

maybe I should just give up.

Stop meds snd therspy

would that hrlp

how long can I keep doing therspy

I’m over it sll

tears snd csnt sleep

Even on here I feel alone at times

it doesn’t matter anymore

Sometimes @BlueBay things come up that make it impossible for us to keep to our word as may have happened with your doctor. It is not a reflection on you at all and he has not abandoned you - history of how he has supported you shows that - it may just be a case that something else, maybe an emergency or something private for hime, came up - it happens. Try not to go to 'worst case scenario' on your part until you know!

What can you do for yourself tonight to help you sleep? Do you need to call a helpline to talk through how you are feeling?

It doesn’t matter anymore @Zoe7 I’m nit going to call a helpline.

There’s no point anymore

I’m dissociating a lot lately

keep thinking of things

don’t worry

I’m the only one that can change

its all my fault

I’m to blame fir a lot

Whether you do or don't call a helpline is up to you @BlueBay but I would encourage you to do so to talk this out.

I am happy to sit here with you but I don't know how much I can help you when you want to push me away - and that is how I feel when you say things like no-one cares as I think being here for you over so much time, years now it has been, shows that I care - as do others. I know you are hurting Hon but that hurts me too and the last thing I want for either of us is more hurt in our lives.

@Zoe7 I’m nit pushing you or anyone away.

I’m sorry I need time to myself.

We know @BlueBay that you are going through an extremely rough time lately and you are trying to convey just how bad you are feeling on here. It is not easy by any means to find any positives when you are feeling like that but I think it is helpful for you to recognise that you do have support here Hon. I didn't mean to to hurt you BB - but sometimes things here get to all of us at times and sometimes we need to state where we stand too. Tonight is not a good night for me either and maybe I should have gone a little easier on you when you are particularly vulnerable - but we all need to help ourselves at times too.

Hi @BlueBay,

Sorry to hear that things are so tough at the moment. When supports that are usually available to us go away or don't keep a commitment that can be really triggering for a lot of people.

I hear that you don't want to call a helpline. In that case, what would be helpful? It wouldn't have to take away all the distress, but what would be something to help ground you a little bit to help with this worry and dissociation?

Take care,

Tortoiseshell

@Former-Member

I just need time alone atm

will try to calm down first snd stop crying then I’ll listen to some meditation

tonight is an extremely difficult night

Hi @BlueBay .....

Thinking of you 💙💜🐚