not feeling good

What a truly awful space to be in right now @BlueBay. You've done so well to talk to your doctor and it's really normal to feel overwhelmed after talking about traumatic experiences. I wonder whether your doctor had any suggestions about how to look after yourself after your conversation with him. You've done well to notice that you need help and I'm glad you've decided to reach out. That's something to feel proud of.

As a reminder though, the forums are not a counselling or crisis service. If you're concerned about your safety or you'd like counselling support, please reach out to the following services:

Lifeline 13 11 14

Suicide Callback Service 1300 659 467

You can also go to the hospital or contact 000 in an emergency.

Take good care of yourself today @BlueBayand please do reach out for support 🌻

@Former-Member@Zoe7 I think when I tell my mum the news of who abused me I will break down and that’s when I’ll need help. I’m scared I’ll go to hospital. My doctor has made an apt fir Thursday night in case I need him

my head is going over my last conversation I had with my Mum and it was devastating. Truly horrible. Blamed me for the abuse. I’m scared it’s all going to happen again. 😥😥

It is good you have that appointment in place next Thursday afternoon so whatever hapens you have support. If you need to go into hospital then that is where you need to be Hon - your safety is the priority.

How did the appointment go with your hubby? Does he now get more what you are dealing with?

hugs sis @BlueBay

You've done really well to think ahead and to set up some solid support structures over the coming week. Shows a whole lot of wisdom @BlueBay Things will be difficult but you're doing all the right things to support yourself to move through it 🌷

@Former-Member @Shaz51@Zoe7

How do I not worry stress think about what will happen next Thursday? I’m playing in my head the worst scenario and I know my mum.

Once I tell her it was my brother that sexually abused me as a 9 yr old what do you think she’ll say? She will be shocked.

Im scared I won’t be able to get the words out.

She will be angry and I hope not with me.

Ive wrecked everything.

I wish I never ever remembered the abuse all those years ago.

The more you play the worst case scenario over in your head the harder this is going to be for you @BlueBay

I do not think that we here are equipt to help you with this as much as a healthcare professional or helpline counsellor would be. If you are finding yourself in crisis mode here then please reach out for that added support. We can be here to support you in so many ways but if it comes to your safety being compromised at all then there are others so much more qualified to help you and you need to seek that support from them.

@Former-Member has listed the numbers above and there is also your CAT team - please do not go through this alone - use the resources that are available to you to talk it all out.

@Former-Member @Former-Member

do you know of a contact number or website for survivors of childhood sexual abuse??

feeling desperate

@BlueBay https://www.blueknot.org.au/

The more you play the worst case scenario over in your head the harder this is going to be for you @BlueBay

I agree @BlueBay my sis and your mum know part of it