not feeling good

Thanks guys @MDT@Pepsimax@Faith-and-Hope

im tired of all this. It’s used up all the energy I had.

you are all prob sick of reading my shit crap life. I want to scream but can’t.

I ws t to sh so much so hard

i need to get away

im panic

im trying to hang on to tomorrow’s spt at 2pm. But maybe I won’t mskr it till then. I need to see her and let it all out. I feel I’m holding in so much pain hurt and emotions that once I sit down in doctors room it will all come out.

Breathe @BlueBay ..... work with your calming strategies .....

Choose something as a distraction for each hour across the day and focus only on that ..... when your mind begins to wander back to the traumas, focus back in your chosen distraction harder ..... use your senses .... touch things, smell things, notice their colours, listen for sounds ...... hold and I e cube and feel how cold it is, moving it from hand to hand until it melts

......

Hugs 💜

sitting with you sis @BlueBay

let`s talk about something we enjoy xxxx

I can’t think @Shaz51 theres not much. 😥

@Shaz51 What can we talk about?

@BlueBay

what show`s do you like watching xxx

or anything you like to talk about @BlueBay

today we went food shopping for us and my mum

home now , put the food away and now watching "escape to the country ", love the pictures of the countryside of england , soo much land out there

how was little ayla yesterday xx

did you sons have fun overseas , are they home now

@Shaz51 Watching sons of anarchy on Netflix. It’s a good show. I know @Zoe7 has watched it. I feel strangled inside of me. I feel trapped inside of me with all my emotions.

It’s cold windy and rainy.

Sounds like you had a busy morning.

Ayla is really good. She is so funny she screws her nose up when she smiles. Yeah my boys had a fantastic time. They came back so tanned. It was a really good holiday. But I’m glad they’re home.

@Shaz51 How are you? I know you weren’t too well a while ago. Hiw is hubby?

@Shaz51 I feel like doing nothing. My purpose in life has gone. My motivation has gone. I don’t know what I want anymore. It’s do confusing. Is it becays I’ve hit the 50’s sbd menopause? My life 12 yrs ago was nit like this. But thdn agsin my childhood abuse didn’t come out then. The last 8 yrs my life has been hell. I’m just scared 😥😥

sending you lots of hugs @BlueBay

have not seen sons of anarchy yet

My mum wants to watch Mumma mia but got no dvd recorder

Yes a bit tired now though sis xxxxx