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not feeling good

not feeling good

At the moment i am not feeling good. i feel like my body is in 'run away mode'. i feel my body is running on a high, my head is so mixed up. i have to go to bed and try to sleep, but don't know if i can.

my hormones are everywhere at the moment; my mood is sky high negative. i can't deal with this anymre. all of a sudden i am not feeling good. i think it is anxiety.

i don't know why i feel like this; i just want to cry but can't becsue everyone is home. i am going to bed. i don't know what is going on. actually maybe it is anxiety because i felt like passing out today.

I went to my GP to have my mirena IUD taken out as I had had enough. But he couldn't find the string, so he sent me for a ultrasound. Had that and the guy said i had two fibroids and a cyst on my ovary. but he couldn't find the string either, so had to have an xray to find the metal piece. they didn't tell me anything. but while waiting i was so anxious i almost passed out.

so now i have to wait for tomorrow when my GP will call me at work and let me know what will happen now. hopefully he can take the mirena out. i don't know.

my body is reacting to my anxiety - i feel so shaky, i need to stop. no point telling anyone at home becasue (a) they won't believe me and (b) they prob wouldn't care.

sorry, i had to tell someone. i feel so alone 😞

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I give up. Im not doing this anymore. 😢

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You feel like this when you are home alone and have too much time to think @BlueBay - what can yiou do this afternoon to occupy your mind?

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@Zoe7

Right now I don’t care snout anything. Not even my meds. Don’t care about my support people either. They are prob sick of seeing me sll the time. I’m just pathetic Zoe. I can’t get better. I have no self control. I have no damn control.

Why cant I just be normal. No I have to be a bad pathetic wife mother and friend. No one wants me. Well I don’t care anymore. I’m so over it. I need to let all my emotions out of my head. It’s too much. I need an escape plan. Maybe I can leave tomorrow morning.

I just feel so lost in my life it doesn’t matter anymore. It really doesn’t. .

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Now is the time for you to stop and think of all the things that you would be leaving behind - how would you kids and Ayla feel if you weren't around? We both know the answer to that one and I am sure you don't want to put them through that!

You begin the negative self-talk and self sabotage when you aren't coping with your thoughts and feelings and it is usually around this time each day that this happens - that is when you are tired and alone - those two things are not good for you - that is why you need to do something to stop this pattern - can you take Jersey for a walk - the fresh air and exercise would do you both good @BlueBay - and you would be getting out of the house!

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Things are sounding really distressing for you right now @BlueBay. You've done well to reach out for support. As a reminder, if you're concerned about your safety or you'd like counselling support, you can reach out to the following services:

Lifeline 13 11 14

Suicide Callback Service 1300 659 467

Take good care of yourself today and please do reach out for support 🌻

@Zoe7 is offering some great support and ideas of might might be helpful for you right now. Have you got plans to see Ayla soon?

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@Former-Member@Zoe7

Cant leave the house. Anxiety high. Laying here staring at nothing

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Laying there is resting @BlueBay and resting is good. What are you having for dinner tonight?

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Gnocchi with creamy mushroom bacon sauce. But I don’t feel like eating.

@Zoe7 I’ve screwed up so much. I’m not dealing with things lately.

Rest is what I need right now. I’m so angry with myself and my mental illness.

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Oh yum - that sounds perfect comfort food @BlueBay Please try to eat a little - if only to tell me how great it tastes lol

Youo feel like this after your psychologist appointments Hon - it brings up all those feelings that you find it hard to control - I understand what that is like and feel for you.

But you also need to keep occupied when you feel like this - it is what your doctor suggests as well as us here who know you well. Tonight may need to be an early night so you can recover physically as well as emotionally a little - something to keep in mind.

You are not screwed up Hon - your feelings are your feelings - it is just about trying to deal with them in a way that can let you still function and some of that you need to work through with your psychologist - and in the meantime we are here listening and supporting you

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Thank you my beautiful friend @Zoe7❤️❤️🦋💐

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