not feeling good

No these few days it is best Mum doesn't know anything methinks @BlueBay

It is going to be so nice hearing about their travels around Italy though - you can imagine you are right there with them.

How is the pain in your side now?

It’s eased up @Zoe7

but if it gets worse during the night I’ll go to hospital.

I am pleased it has eased up - even a little is good @BlueBay but please do go to hospital if it gets worse again - better to be safe Hon.

Have you been able to eat little things today?

@Zoe7 I had a bit of pasta tonight for dinner. Im just not interested in eating. I might have a mandarin now.

I think that’s why my doctor is worried that I’ve lost a lot of weight this week that he wants me to really try to eat.

That is the problem with being so sick @BlueBay - you don't feel like eating but it is really important that you do to keep up some strength to fight off the virus - so glad you had some pasta and can eat a little fruit. You have done really well today to stay occupied in between resting too - I have loved chatting to you as well - shows that when you keep occupied you are more able to deal with the mental side of things - great job so far today Hon

@Zoe7 Are you around?

I’m heading downhill. I don’t care about anything anymore. I feel crap and my mental health is shocking right now. I want to throw things around the house. Break things. I want to cry scream rip into myself. I want to sh. I want to do so much.

I am exhausted I am not well mentally and physically I feel worse than ever.

I am hurting. I want to feel loved. I feel so alone. I want to hide. I want to go away. I want to run. I want to cry

I want to

I don’t know whst I want

everything hurts

I need sleep and it’s not happening

I’m so vulnerable tonight

I'm here Hon - let it out @BlueBay I am listening.

I need help @Zoe7 i can’t cope.

Im not coping. I need to rip into things.

I want to get away

i want to hide

im crying

I feel so sick

ive no energy

i just want a hug

i need to go

i want to run

im overwhelmed

if I could break something I would

My head hurts

im just not good

it doesn’t matter

I just want to go away forever

i can’t deal being sick

I'm hearing you Hon and it sucks. It is hard enough dealing with our emotional pain but add in the physical pain as well and it feels impossible @BlueBay I have been there and I totally get where you are coming from. Everything seems sooo hard but you can get through this- I will stay here as long as you need tonight and keep chatting to you until you can feel like you can fall asleep - that is what you need more than anything - to be able to sleep and to recover a little. Here with you BB

Just know you are loved BB and we are here sitting with you. You matter and you are such a beautiful and caring person. Perhaps take a warm shower and have a warm drink and do whatever helps you to settle. I know those things work for me and not sure what works for you but focus on what you would like to do next. @BlueBay