not feeling good

It definitely makes us feel worse emotionally when we are physically unwell as well @BlueBay - so I can imagine you are not coping very well with your emotions right now - it is really tough when we are so sick because we can't do things to distract ourselves from our own thoughts - I get this completely Hon - hang in there BB and do what you can to keep distracted ...if that means chatting here then keep doing that.

@Zoe7 i think Jersey knows that the boys are not here. she is going from one bedroom to the other. she normally sleeps in their rooms and alternates. this morning she looks lost, just walking around. and by having me home as well has thrown her completely!!

i've stopped crying for now, i think i needed to release some of my emotions. how are you feeling this morning? are yoiu able to eat anything?

Poor Jersey @BlueBay dogs certainly feel differences in circumstances or routine. I need to start leaving Toby during the day more so he gets used to me not being home when I eventually return to work.

I can't eat yet but the painkillers are numbing most of the pain and the antibiotics should be kicking in today too to help with any infection. I am hoping to be able to eat tonight - at least something I don't have to chew much - maybe even just some mashed potatoes or even porridge. I need to have something to help with energy levels ...especislly with DBT tomorrow!

Can you pull out your knitting or colouring in @BlueBay ? Creativity is good for our healing.

Hi @Zoe7@Faith-and-Hope

Just had a little snooze. I need to not fight my negative thoughts atm as I don’t have any energy. It’s hard though.

Hubby is buying pumpkin to make soup.

Waiting to hear from my older son if he arrived safely overseas. Hopefully he’ll call very soon.

@Zoe7 How did you go with your hydro therapy.

@Faith-and-Hope How’s your day been?

Hi @Shaz51 ❤️❤️❤️

Makes it harder to fight those negative thoughts when you are unwell @BlueBay - too much time to 'think' for us is not a good thing but you need to look after yourself as best you can in these situations - plenty of rest is needed for your physical wellbeing but that doesn't always help with the mental side of things - it is tricky

Hydrotherapy was good today - just lovely to be back in the water. I managed to do my program twice which has been what we have been working up to so that was encouraging. I have had to have more painkillers though as my mouth was throbbing afterwards - maybe did a little too much but was feeling ok whilst in the water.

I am taking it easy this afternoon so am here to chat if that will help you stay distracted for a while.

@Zoe7 It’s so quiet at home atm with no boys. I feel emotional again. I didn’t have any lunch just not hungry. Just had a coffee.

Glad hydro helps you. Hopefully can you eat something soft tonight?

I can imagine not having the boys there would be a bit like me not having Toby here - I would feel lost without him here @BlueBay - he is always wherever I am and I find comfort in that. He is not very well today - been vomitting a little so I need to keep my eye on him and if it continues I will need to take him to the vet. He is curled up next to me atm so hoping that has passed now and he will be ok.

I am about to watch House Rules from last night - recorded it to watch today - nice and relaxing in front of the tv with the doona and Toby - that is my idea of relaxing after hydrotherapy!

I know when you are unwell you don't feel like eating but make sure you keep your fluids up nibble on something small if you can - it will help you in the longrun Hon

So I won’t tell you what happens in house rules @Zoe7 enjoy watching it. Tell me later what you thought of who leaves.

I will @BlueBay but I am happy to chat with you before I watch it Hon - I bet your boys are looking forward to their trip around Italy! Is it windy where you are today? I hate the wind - so many bad memories which make it hard to deal with - my anxiety has definitely increased today as the wind has also increased.