not feeling good

It is easy to be here with you BB... even when you are struggling because I know the heart of you and the heart of you is wonderful @BlueBay

I do take more time out for myself these days - sometimes others' struggles are too much for me to cope with and look after myself as well but you (and others) are always in my thoughts

Don't feel bad for not writing to others @BlueBay - you can only do what you can do and taking care of yourself first is the priority

You take care of yourself too BB

@Former-Member it is often a really hard balancing act between what I need and what I can realistically handle - and lately there is a lot I cannot handle so it is best for me to not be on here. The down side to that is I lose connections with others and that is not a good place for me to be - it makes it really hard either way!!

I totally get where you are coming from @Former-Member it just isn't that easy for me to join anything. I tried joining another online 'group' but couldn't engage there at all. Feeling that connectedness is important and here is where I feel that the most... so it is difficult at times but I think I am doing much better at 'leaving the forum' behind when I need to. My pdoc has discussed DBT and other groups at the clinic she works at but can also recognise that I am not yet in a place to do those just yet ...maybe in time I can but right now I still have too much anxiety around being with people. We are working on it a little at a time but I am finding it very difficult to do. Luckily for me she is not pushing me too far but we both recognise that there are some major hurdles stopping me that we need to work through slowly.