not feeling good

awww @BlueBay that is really nice to hear - gave me warm fuzzies

Hi everyone

Went out for Fathers Day breakfast this morning with our 3 children. My daughter's partner couldn't come as he had to work. But it was nice just to have our children.

Now I'm home doing some crocheting. Soaking some lentils to make a soup for dinner. Helped my son iron his police shirts, they have to be done perfectly. He is packing his bag and will leave later this afternoon.

I was sitting alone before and just sobbed, couldnt stop crying. I was having a conversation with myself about me arguing with my mum and how much anger i have towards her. the next thing i started to sob missing my dad. i rang the CAT team and spoke to a lovely lady who helped me calm down and suggested i take a calmative this afternoon. i will try to have a nap later but i need to make soup and give some to my son to eat before he leaves.

hope everyone else is okay

Hi everyone

I phoned the private hospital to see where I am on the waiting list. I was told by the nurse manager that the psych who is seeing patients on behalf of my own psych (he's away) will not see me or admit me. So i have to wait until the 14th Sept until my own psych comes back for him to admit me.

I AM SO DAMN ANGRY. I am angry with the other psych because he used to be my psych, why can't he just admit me, i need a hospital stay. Gosh i am angry at him.

He refused to admit me in, those were her words. How childish is that, where is his professionalism?

Seeing my GP at lunchtime so i will tell him about it. I haven't even heard from the psuychologist that i saw last Monday. She told me she would call me but nothing. What is it with these people, they promise things but never doing it.

So at the moment I have no psych or psychologist. I don't even know if i should see her next week with a planned appointment I made. I have no idea.

hi everyone

not feeling good - i have possibly a umbilical hernia which is causing pain. having an ultrasound on thursday to confirm. Possibly surgery and need to lose weight would help. But today i have had headaches on either side of my head (temple) which come and go, pain in my stomach and not feeling good.

Might not be on here too much at the moment.

This weather here is crap crap and crap, windy, rain and more rain and more wind. Hail stones, even the dog's water bowl had ice this morning. It's so cold, right now it is pouring. hate this weather so much.

Sorry not much to say today,

Weather here is the same @BlueBay

You can't take a trick can you my beautiful little yellow butterfly \

When will the universe give you a break - naughty universe!!!

I really hope you don't have to have surgery but whatever the problem is I hope it is found and fixed quickly for you.

Whether you are on here or not I am still sitting on your shoulder sweetheart...

Zoe

I want to stop my meds altogether,, right NOW

Let's take a journey back in time @BlueBay - stay with me here BB...

Once upon a time there was a little yellow flower who decided she would stop all her meds without consulting with anyone. This little yellow flower ended up being really sick and ending up in hospital. She was then really worried that her doctor would hate her and got really anxious about that. The doctor didn't hate her but was really concerned for her. As the days went on the Little Yellow Flower became more and more sad - she finally realised that she was using the idea of going off meds to sagotage herself.

Little Yellow Flower's friend Little Butterfly does not want her friend to self-sagotage again and is asking her to STOP, take a minute to calm, think of the consequences and then get back to Little Butterfly in how she is feeling and why she really wants to stop her meds