not feeling good

yea @Former-Member definitely need it - it is very dark and bitterly cold outside. Even Toby doesn't want to go out!

@Faith-and-Hope I suppose you wouldn't remember much that long ago lol

@BlueBay how you doing my little yellow flower?

Hey @Zoe7@Former-Member@Faith-and-Hope

I'm so anxoius waiting for Monday now. Waiting to see if (a) the private hospital call me for a bed availability or (b) I get admitted in the public hospital mental health short stay unit for 3 days. I wish it was right now, i can't wait until Monday.

It's so hard waiting, my mind is going everywhere with so much stuff.

Hugs @BlueBay

Hi everyone

My ankle is still a bit sore, everything i try to walk on it, it hurts. Don't know what i have done. Mentally i am still the same. i cannot wait until Monday for the hospital stay. I am waiting for the CAT team clinican to call me today to see how i am coping. This whole past two weeks has been too much to deal with, i have a hospital admission this week, i was in hospital last week, my daughters baby shower afternoon at my place next week, my son leaving home to the police academy next week. It's all happening and i am not coping.

Damn why does life throw so many things all at once? I can't deal with it all.

My SH actions haven't been too bad, although i must still stay out of the kitchen alone is not good.

Home alone right now is a trigger as well. Cold afternoon, nowhere to go, nothing to do .........

Thanks @Former-Member

I guess i am just feeling sorry for myself. Is that being selfish??

I have no motivation to do anything.

How is work with you and how you are kids going? what you are you up to?

Hi guys

this morning i received a phone call from the CAT team. just checking in on me to see how i am. told them i was just okay, still struggling with a few things. they said they will call me tomorrow with what is happening in regards to a bed availability in the public hospital. and hopefully there may even be a bed available in the private hospital. You never know when a patient gets discharged. Although the guy told me this mronign that the public hospital was full up in the short stay unit meaning the 6 beds were taken up. So unless one patient gets discharged tomorrow I guess i won't go in. Great, I've just realised my plan B won't happen 😞

I don't know anymore, if i am better or not better. if i am coping or not coping. if i will ever get better or if i will just manage my illness forever.

I am so tired lately. Going to bed early and sleeping till late morning. And the past few weeks i have noticed that i don't even want to have a shower anymore. I can't be bothered to get dressed. if i could stay in my pj's i would. might need to get a blood test for my iron, it is prob low. i am cold all the time and very very tired.

my ankle is slightly better, i am not walking as much, my motivation for that is going downhill as well. i was all excited with walking daily; but at the moment that has gone too.