not feeling good

Im not feeling very good

Mentally not good

hugs @BlueBay

Hi @BlueBay,

I'm sorry to hear you are being messed around so much. I'm glad you will be able to get into hospital by the end of the week. That isn't very far away, although I can imagine it might feel like an eternity right now.

Thanks @Phoenix_Rising@Shaz51@Faith-and-Hope@outlander@Former-Member @Zoe7

for your support. I don't know what else to do at the moment. I guess all i can do is wait. Counting down the days.

My psychologist called me this afternoon and said that the last session I had with her was terrible, she agreed because I had dissociated so much that she tried twice to 'bring me back to the present' and had trouble. she said she know will not do this tyhpe of therapy again. for now she will start with emotional regulation and distress tolerance, back to basic and grounding myself.

The CAT team clinician called last night to check on me, told them about the hospital wait and they said they will call me again today to check on me and they made an appt for me to see someone else at their clinic rooms on Wednesday afternoon.

I am hoping, really hoping that by friday i have a bed.

This morning my daughter and I went to a cake shop to order a cake for the baby shower, Cute little cake with iced booties and ribbon on top of the cake. Then i came home and had a boring day, fell asleep on the couch. The boys went out to buy a suit for my oldest son as he needs to wear a suit for the first few weeks of Police in academy until he gets uniform.

Just made lasagna for dinner, cooking now in the oven slowly.

I feel down, really sick in the stomach and a sore throat. hoping i don't come down with anything.

Hope you are all well.

BB xxxooo

@BlueBay

im glad your psychologist recognised that form of therapy want suited to you and has a different plan now.

sounds exciting to be organising and helping your daughter with her baby. shes going to be sooo spoilt and she will be so worth it

i hope you start to feel better soon

i don't know what to do anymore 😞

@BlueBay maybe I have sat on your shoulder for too long and passed on my recent (lengthy) sickness to you lol I do hope you aren't coming down with something too and that a bed becomes available super quickly. Here is something for you to hold onto unto then...

just breathe BB

watch some tv take it easy and breathe

@BlueBay

@BlueBay just keep talking my beautiful friend we are here with you

Aww thanks @Zoe7 xxxooo

Don't fly away, stay near me or on my shoulder

I need you near me, i feel so alone, scared, fragile

But hang on - only stay if you are able to - i mean if you are not coping pls don't stay, there are others on here who will be around, no pressure pls

BB xxxooo