not feeling good

@outlander

hi

right now there is nothing to do that will keep me calm or at peace,

too much thoughts in my mind

feel like smashing someting up

@BlueBay

what about ripping up a head of papers to take out some frustrations, its abit safer then smashing things up

or scribble scribble scribble away on some papers?

@outlander

i want to hurt someone (my mum) i want to hurt her so she can feel the pain

of course i can't becauwe i don't see her or speak to her

but i so want to hurt her like she has hurt me

it's not fair she has hurt me so much

it's not fair

something that will hurt me is what i will end up doing

i know that is what will happen

it's not right

i am sorry

@BlueBay

punishing yourself wont help you nor will it hurt your mother.

try to find something else to do until the urge passes

Hello @BlueBay

Do you find that drinking fuddles already fuddled thoughts, but you do it anyway to try and numb everything out?

So sorry your not doing good

Wish I had a magical ssshhhssshhh, just like I used to wish I had magical wool to pull over my eyes

Remember the most important word - 'could'

can you take some shopping center type pain assist medication {can't say P*nadol}

Yes, stopping drinking will help

I know it's hard but keep fighting, it's worth it!

Lots of love to you

@Former-Member

what if i take quite a few p*dol that will help

i don't know i am so confused and hurting so much

i am sorry i will get off here

it's no use sometimes i feel like a nothing

Oh @BlueBay

Taking too many won't help, your body can only 'absorb' so much, the rest just does damage.

Really feeling for your confusion and your hurt

Try and rest, even if you can't sleep, try to rest your body, your muscles and your head.

Maybe put on some favourite music, quiet and calming?

Perhaps a cool face washer on your forehead?

It might help to take some water with you when you lay down, and sip it when you can.

Take care of you Bluebay

thanks for your help @Former-Member and @outlander

but it's too late

the pain is too intense

i am sorry if i have worried you

i have a terrible headache

need some sleep

so sorry i didn't mean to worry anyone

i am really stressed confused and hurting today

my body is aching for love hugs from anyone

just anyone

it's always too late

oh @BlueBay

i understand.

take it easy. take something for the headache- not too many just the reccomended dose ok and lay day and ahve a rest.

the headache is jsut adding to the tension you feel right now, something has to give

sending many soothing hugs your way. i know its not enough but sending you some anyway

Love and hugs to you @BlueBay

Imagine me gently stroking your hair

It is always too late and it is never too late, how's that for confusing!

Caring about you, and because I do, of corse I'm worrying about you too. I wonder if @Former-Member is around?