not feeling good

Hi everyone

I saw my GP yesterday who just wanted to monitor me and see how I was travelling. I told him the same. He wantged to know what i was dooing and i told him i was visiting my sister and that today i have ann appt with my pyschologist. he said what about wednesday - are you going to work? i said i don't want to. he suggested i go because it's a distraction for me and it's better that i am with people. he said of course if i am not coping i am to go back and see him but he would prefer that i try to go to work. that's if i am not in hospital.

I am seeing my psycholoigst this morning at 10am. haven't seen her for at least 2 months. Boy that's a long time, i have so much to tell her that one hour won't be long enough!!

I will let you all know how I go later on today.

Hi everyone

Well my 10am appt has cancelled. My psychologist is not in. So now I am angry, emotinoal and have no one to talk to. I have just called my GP and left a msg with him.

Why is it that when i need to talk to someone they are not in.

I so wish the hospital would ring me. I am too scared to ring them.

@BlueBay

Hugs @BlueBay

Hi @BlueBay

It really must feel as if the world is ganging up on you - but all I can say is that sh^t happens and the world can seem very uncaring at times

About work - what until tomorrow and see how you feel - if distraction would help - go to work - if it all seems too much - stay home - or go to work and see what happens. Ask yourself - what is the worst thing that can happen about going to work

When it comes to your having someone to talk with - honestly - you have people to talk to all the time - please don't take it so personally - other people have things happening and I know how it feels - I have had my appointment with my pain specialist cancelled twice and I am wondering if it will be cancelled again on Friday because apparently she has been very ill and is only working part-time atm - this is hard - I know - but life is what happens to you when you are busy making other plans [John Lennon]

Why not ring the hospital and see what's happening? - again - I have to ask - what is the worst thing that can happen if you ring them and nothing is happening?

I understand how tough all of this is right now - true - at times the sky does fall - last night we had heavy rain and hail - a really close thunderstorm - I had to turn my computer off and charge my phone in case I lost power - and hope I wouldn't - but yes - that is life happening and I understand

When you don't do something - you are making a decision - I have been extra busy lately but I did read a lot - I think it was last night - and you asked why you have trouble making decisions but by doing nothing you are making a decision

Take life more easily - it only feels as if the world is getting to you - and it must be exhausting - but I do understand - I get pretty fragile myself at times

Lots of hugs

Dec

dear everyone

I HATE MY LIFE

eveyting about it, no one i can help me anymore

there is no point

life sucks

i am so tired of this life

what is the point

@Former-Member there is no point anymore

i am sorry

I've emailed you @BlueBay.

Don't give up @BlueBay, you have more than me to live for. Holding your precious granddaughter in your arms is one, seeing the look on you daughters face to becomw a mum, being there for her through labour and caring for her first baby etc. And knitting all those blankets.. And being there for them to ring you with milestones and good new "things to write home about" How aweful for them if they couldn't find you.

There is beautiful moments waiting for you BB, well worth it, Try get a couple hours sunshine tomorrow and lots of water. You can ride this Wave out, I believe in you 🌷🌿

@Former-Member @Former-Member

Hi

I am still here, I have just had breakfast and got dressed. I have an apt with mhy GP this morning and supposed to go to work. As much as i don't want to go I prob will go because it distracts me even for a little while.

I will phone the hospital this morning to find out where I am on the waiting list.

@Former-Member it's weird I have so much to look forward to - but - I feel so crap. I feel like i am in a very dark place.

I will let you know how i go today later on.

thank you for your support. xxoo