not feeling good

No need to worry about the brain scan @BlueBay

It could be an MRI which is noisy or a C-T scan - which could be noisy -

But they don't wrap your head up in anything and they will tell you everything that happens

They are just checking up to see what the headaches are not - you have had them for a while and I think - I am pretty sure - it's your blood pressure because of the nose-bleed

Still - I know you are scared but my Dad used to say - if you dream it then it's okay - that's the worst part

And it is - dreams are where we are totally out of control

I had a bad one - I can't remember if it was last night or the night before - but I saved all my cats before the disaster struck - and once the cats were safe - I was okay too - I woke up

And I only have one cat - not a whole family of them

It is hard for you - I know this - but you will be okay

Holding your hand too

Dec

Hi @BlueBay

I'm so sorry to hear that. You don't need to know exactly how to feel - grief can cause numbness, sadness, helplessness and everything else under the sun. Just stay intuned to what your emotions want to provide yourself the space to grieve.

It sounds like you had a lot of fond memories with them. If your family is anything like mine, cousins can be like brothers and sisters.

Thinking of you.

Hi @BlueBay

I'm so sorry to hear that., sending you lots of hugs

Hi @BlueBay

I think your new GP is a sweetie - you can use someone so nice in your team

I am so sorry about your cousin - one of my cousins died nearly 10 years ago now - I was so destroyed when that happened - of course everyone feels things differently but you do need to give yourself time to grieve

It's sad when someone so young died - best thing to do is to turn your phone off and find a quiet place - I am sure they will give you your dinner in your room seeing as there has been a death in the family

You did not need this to happen - but it has - and you will feel badly

Caring heaps

Dec

Another headache - I am so sorry @BlueBay

You have so much happening - and what your doctor said about everytime he sees you there is something else happening - that is a wonderful thing happening - he sounds as if he is really interested in you and this is such a good thing

Of course you are over all this - the medication stuff-up with your old psyche changing everything all the time - so frustrating to have all of that

I can tell you I am over mine - I take them for pain - and I have cut them back over the last few months and it has been okay - and now it weather is cooling down I am feeling more pain and I don't want to increase my medication after all this work - it makes me drowsy anyway

We can ask ourselves - is there any end to all of this - well - well - um - probably not - our conditions are such that they need management - not cured - of course - who can tell what is in the future - life just goes on an on -

I am so glad you are in hospital right now - you sound exhausted

Dec