not feeling good

@BlueBay i reposted your rainbow fish so should be up pretty soon

and also i replyed to your other thread @BlueBay

Hi @utopia

I am sorry you little guy is not well - a blood test is a good idea - hope it's not the Ross River thing - that would be bad.

When they are tough and stoical it can be harder to convince the medical profession that they are ill - my dd was like that - really kept stuff to herself - still does - it bothers me but people are who they are

Yes - I was at Lakes Entrance - beautiful place and beautiful weather - I really did pick the right week to go - it's a week since I got back but seems longer - plannin my next trip already - but I don't know where yet

I am thinking of your and your little guy

Dec

I am sorry about that migraine @Former-Member

I hope it feels better this morning - the day after I have one I always feel as if my head has been kicked in

Take it easy today - I don't know where you live but in Melbourne it feels humid and like it will be be another hot day - so I hope you can take the day off in a cool place

Dec

Another bad dream @BlueBay - I am sorry about that

When are you seeing your psychologist about that - um - aw - I understand why you are having these dreams and I hope that helps -

It's really bad luck you have to work overtime on such a hot and humid weekend - yes - if you have to go to bed as soon as you get home today and let the guys in your family look after themselves

It's so annoying when men sit around watching TV when you are the one working - I understand that in a big way

Thinking of you

Dec

Hi @Owlunar @Former-Member @utopia @Zoe7

I'm seeing my pyschologist on Tuesday and I cannot wait. I will write down some stuff - bad dreams, moving, high anxiety, emotional, depression not good.

Today is shit - i have to work we are moving shop. But i am not going to lift anything at all. my back is a bit sore and stiff. so i will put the stock out and shelf labels and i am noty working till 5pm. i will tell them i am finishing at 3pm.

i started to feel guilty yesterday and was thinking i should go in tomorrow on my day off to help out a bit more - but - i am not. i decided last night i am too emotional, and exhausted. so i will hjave monday and tuesday off and go back to work on wednesday.

we are seeing a lovely home tomorrow night, agent says we will love it as he thinks it will suit us. it's in a newer area, 5 mins down the road from us now but with heaps of walking gtracks, lots of land for jersey to run and walk and play and a cafe 15 mins walk and looking at the beautiful bay and mirena with all the boats and yachts!!!

I better go, why did i say yes for work. i will chat tonight when i get home.

hope everyone has a nice day. @Former-Member hope you are okay this morning and did you have a migraine. i get them and it's horrible. you actually feel so drained the next day. so take it easy my friend.

sorry this is quick, must run 🙂

Hi @BlueBay

Yes - take tomorrow off and Tuesday and see your psychologist - on your list write down about the need to heal your soul - because you do - and the psychologist who wrote on the subject is James Hillman and the subject is Re-Visioning Psychology - which means looking again at your soul - and I really think one reason all of this is so hard is that you are what I call "soul-injured" and this happening when you were first abused - than again - and when you told your mother she had a melt-down and froze you out after being so controlling all your life

I can feel your pain - I know it -

People are who they are and we can't change that - some people would be utterly mortified if they hurt someone unintentionally - these people would never do it deliberately - if I feel I have hurt someone's feelings - I must have at times - I feel terrible - but people like our mother's know they are right - even though the opposite is true - and somehow we have to find the strength in ourselves to move past that

I will be thinking of you today - hey - that new house sounds great - you can look out across the Bay - that will be so healing - I hope you can get it - it sounds not far from where you already have contacts -

Yes - it is humid again - I opened the front door to let the cat out but I think that was not the best idea I had in the world - better turn the A/C on

Back later

Dec

You have rain @Former-Member - are you living up the North East coast with a hurrican bearing down on you? - actually I hope you live anywhere else -

Take it easy with the headache - mine hang around a bit like that - I get eye-strain - and a migraine can be edgy for a couple of days after - I know this

Do you have sisters following your about? I know a bit about that when I was young - there were times when I had a little sister on my wheel - yeah - that and a headache would be not what I would call a good day

So glad you can feed your horses though - and I don't think horses mind a bit of rain

Dec

Hi @Former-Member

I'll have to have another look at the radar about this TC Cyclone - I am glad you are in NSW - and sorry about a month of rain - we had an indifferent summer in Victoria and I went away a couple of weeks back and had the best weather - how lucky is that

So I guess you are babysitting your little sisters - how many do you have - and as far as little sisters go I had one who is not on my radar in life now - much much better for me

Did you promise to take them to the movies? Can you change that? plead bad headache and let them watch a DVD or something to keep your eyes away from the screen. I can imagine worse ways of spending a Sunday - but I am scratching my head to think of them

Dec