not feeling good

Hi @BlueBay,

we're glad you have joined us here again. best thoughts and wishes are beaming your way

Hi @BlueBay

Sad to hear that you're struggling

Are you ok?

The SANE Helpline is closed now (closes at 5pm AEDT), but as @Faith-and-Hope pointed out Lifeline and your local CATT are good options if you feel unsafe.

@BlueBay

Hi @CherryBomb @Faith-and-Hope @Former-Member @NotLabelDefined @Snowflake @Zoe7 @Owlunar @utopia

Thank you everyone for all your support/love/care over the past few days. Actually weeks.

I've realised that when things 'change' in my life and out of the ordinary I panic big time. I stress a lot and unable to cope with everyday life eg. work. My sleep pattern lately has been crap, i have spoken to my psych the other day but he says just take another tablet. i don't want to have to keep taking these sorts of tablets all the time, but i am so exhausted that i cannot function. and it is really affecting me and my work at home and at work.

I am so happy to have sold our home which i know will relieve a lot of negative pressure. and a new beginning in a new home and area. but it is all confronting, scary, a huge thing to have to do.

The last few days my anxiety has reached high levels to the point where i was thinking maybe it would be better if i just ran away, disappeared for a while; hide away - and all i was doing was hiding from my fears, from my anxiety. (boy this is confronting right now for me, tears 😞

I have just realised how scared i have been my whole life. scared of my childhood abuse and dealing with it all coming out; dealing with my parents rejection and not loved anymore; dealing with my mother in law who lived with us for 20 yrs go iinto a nursing home with dementia; a husband who i am sure has OCD.

So much stuff and it's hit a rock. I wish there was an easy answer to all of this; but there isn't.

Last night I couldn't reply to any of you. I jumped onto Lifeline and chatted online with someone who listened and helped me calm down my anxiety and SH thoughts.

@CherryBomb I am sorry to have worried you last night, I am glad to see you received the email I sent you.

I am okay, i just have my horrible days/nights. and not sleeping doesn't help it makes things worse, a whole lot worse.

i think i will call my psych today and tell him i am still not coping; not sleeping and what does he suggest.

Moving home after 20 yrs is scary; it's the not knowing of where we;re going; and i really hate changes, challenges and new things. i know i should be happy but at the moment there is so much sadness in my heart; so much heaviness that i can't explain. it's just too hard.

i just thank this forum for allowing me to open up so much; to be totally honest with you all. something i have never ever been able to do before. and certainly not with my husband.