not feeling good

Hey @MDT sorry to hear you're doing it tough at the moment. Just want you to know we're here if you need

Just checking to see if I can post here now

hi @PlantLover

hi @MDT @outlander @Maggie @Faith-and-Hope @Shaz51 @Owlunar

Ok so it seems to be working now !!!

it doesn't hrlp when I was feeling really depressed last night and couldn't post it in here.
I was so mad. I was in a really bad place last night. No one at home could decide on dinner. And that annoyed me because it's assumed that I'm the one that should know what's for dinner. I had been all afternoon at group therapy and I struggled there too. My dsughter decided to have tske awsy and littke A coukd have nuggets and chips. I joined her. Other son said he'll do his own. Hubby (mr pain) says oh no I don't want take away. He'll do something. The one time he decides to have salmon for dinner. At no point did he ask me Whst I wanted fir dinner. Anyway I got angry.
it doesn't matter. I get angry because he could have said ok I'll make dinner for you too. But oh no.
It doesn't matter. I shouldn't have put it in here.

I don't want to go to wirk. I feel like I'm wasting my time been there.

im talking rubbish. Better go.

I wish I could stay in bed and not see anyone or go anywhere.
I wish I could disappear

it's my burthday on Monday and I don't wNt to be here anymore

I've been thinking about this all week

Hi @BlueBay .... it sounds like anxiety is really getting to you at the moment. It's pretty awful in my situation too, and I feel like I am not being listened to or respected by people who are very close relationships to me ..... I hear you Hon ❣️

When it feels like everything is going wrong, and everything is too hard to face, it can be really helpful to break it down into big things and small things ..... otherwise everything feels like a big thing, whether it is or not.

if you take a piece of paper (turn it sideways to give you wider columns) and divide it into three columns .... label the first one "big", the second one "not-so-big", and the last one "small". Then decide where all of the things causing you anxiety in your life fit into this table.

That can start to give you perspective around what the big things are that are sending you into a spin and causing you to want to shut down.

The next thing is to take a highlighter, or marker, and work out what you can fix quite easily by changing something or going around it. Highlight those. Then put a dot next to things that are a bit harder to change, but still doable. The things that are left are the ones to discuss with your therapist, doctor, family, whoever else can help you work at changing them.

Giving yourself that view of what is happening can help you sort the big issues from the small ones and give you more perspective, and more feelings of control over some of the things in your life that are all mushed together in your thoughts and feelings at the moment.

Hugs and hugs @BlueBay .... keep swimming Hon. I am telling myself the same thing.

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