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not feeling good

BlueBaySenior Contributor

not feeling good

At the moment i am not feeling good. i feel like my body is in 'run away mode'. i feel my body is running on a high, my head is so mixed up. i have to go to bed and try to sleep, but don't know if i can.

my hormones are everywhere at the moment; my mood is sky high negative. i can't deal with this anymre. all of a sudden i am not feeling good. i think it is anxiety.

i don't know why i feel like this; i just want to cry but can't becsue everyone is home. i am going to bed. i don't know what is going on. actually maybe it is anxiety because i felt like passing out today.

I went to my GP to have my mirena IUD taken out as I had had enough. But he couldn't find the string, so he sent me for a ultrasound. Had that and the guy said i had two fibroids and a cyst on my ovary. but he couldn't find the string either, so had to have an xray to find the metal piece. they didn't tell me anything. but while waiting i was so anxious i almost passed out.

so now i have to wait for tomorrow when my GP will call me at work and let me know what will happen now. hopefully he can take the mirena out. i don't know.

my body is reacting to my anxiety - i feel so shaky, i need to stop. no point telling anyone at home becasue (a) they won't believe me and (b) they prob wouldn't care.

sorry, i had to tell someone. i feel so alone 😞

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outlanderSenior Contributor

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hey @BlueBay
whats the hospital admission for if you dont mind me asking? is it for mh or physical ailments?
sorry i havent kept up lately.

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BlueBaySenior Contributor

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that's okay @outlander

it is for mental health

but i don't care anymore

they can take however long they want

i really don't care

i am sorry to be a pain and bother you and everyone else on here

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outlanderSenior Contributor

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i see @BlueBay

gosh weeks is a long wait though. If things are quite bad would you consider going to the public emergency department? they may have a spot for you even for a few nights?

When i went there they have a ward called short stay (they have another name but i cant actually say it here) but you only stay for 3-4 days. maybe your local area might have something like this?

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Hi there @BlueBay ,

I am sorry to hear how difficult things has been for you and can hear how frustrated you are with being on the waiting list.

You don't deserve to go through this alone. It sounds like it would be helpful to reach out to a service for immediate support.

Lifeline: 13 11 14 or Crisis Chat

Suicide call back service: 1300 659 467 or online counselling

Samaritans: 135 247

If in immediate danger: 000

Please take care of yourself during this difficult time.

Peonies

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BlueBaySenior Contributor

Re: not feeling good

thanks @Former-Member for your support.

i now know that i have been anxious because of going back to work tomorrow after 8 weeks home after carpal tunnel surgery.

last week i had made a decision to not go back and was hoping to be admitted into hospital by my psych. but unfortunately there is a 3-4 week wait if not more.

i think deep down i know that staying home has escalated my anxiety to go to work. i spoke to my doctor earlier and he is reassuring me that i will be feeling terrible tonight but once i get to work tomorrow morning i will be fine. he wants me to contact him after i finish to let him know.

i am doing a 4 hour shift 8-12noon, so i know it's not a long shift but still my anxiety is high.

i am distracting myself, walk, colouring in my book, play with my little granddaughter.

i am so confused with my decision last week to now today's decision to go to work. i am so insecure with my decisiions, so indecisive.

i may need to chat online tonight with a counsellor.

all these negative thoughts are in my head - run away, hide, self harm, sabotage today is last day as time is running out as i go tomorrow to work. i am trying everythingn in my head to stop tomorrow from coming.

BUT - i think a tiny part of me knows is sabotage and tomorrow will still come.

gosh i am so unstable.

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BlueBaySenior Contributor

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My anxiety is high

I csnt dkeep

I don't want tomorrow to come

I don't want to be here

I want to escape the feeling of being overwhelmed

distraction helped for a little bit

Whst to I do

go away

race

I can't think

@Former-Member

@outlander @MDT @Shaz51 @Maggie @Faith-and-Hope @Owlunar

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outlanderSenior Contributor

Re: not feeling good

@BlueBay what normally helps when you feel this way?
what is happening tomorrow thats causing you so much distress? is it the 4 hour shift tomorrow?

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BlueBaySenior Contributor

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Yeah it's work @outlander

furst time after about 8 weeks since having carpal tunnel surgery.

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outlanderSenior Contributor

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@BlueBay
its totally normal to feel nervous about going back to work. From my point of view i think you made the right decison. Getting back to this work even for one shift a week will help you to get another job by building your confidence in yourself up, have a routine, and all that comes from working.

perhaps doing something relaxng tonight would be good and remind yourself that its only 4 hours. its a good starting point for getting back into things

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BlueBaySenior Contributor

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I think I'll make a cup of tea and go to bed @outlander

@distraction helps for a little bit but then the thoughts come back

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