not feeling good

ohhh my sister @BlueBay , please don`t stop taking your meds

please take them again xx

here for you xx

@BlueBay Are you signed up to an Employment Service? If not it would be well worth doing - they can help you with the job search as well as writing applications/resumes.

As for your meds - take them, don't take them - that is up to you but you know what happens when you don't so that will then be on you. You want a better life for yourself but you have to search for that yourself and take active steps to improve your own life - not taking your meds is not doing that. If you stop taking them then you are going against the advice of your treating team and the only person to blame will be yourself so think carefully want it is you want, how it will affect you if you stop and if you will better better or worse off as a result. No-one can do this for you as it has to be a conscious decision on your part knowing the consequences either way. ....so please think carefully before you make that decision.

Not taking your meds is self-sabotage @BlueBay. I agree with @Zoe7, it's your choice, but I just want to drop in a gentle reminder that you have been really uncomfortable within yourself as a result on other occasions when you have done that, and very sorry afterwards. I know it feels like a go-to in the moment of upset ..... but when we self-sabotage (and we all do that at different times and to different degrees) then we have those pieces to pick back up again afterwards too.

Finding employment is a process Hon. It does take jumping through all the hoops to get there, and you have found new work situations in the past which reminds you that it does happen ......

Sending gentle hugs your way for the way you are feeling tonight. The feelings are really uncomfortable, and I am glad you are sharing them with us so you are not sitting in them alone ...... sending love your way and wishing you courage and perseverance.

Hi @BlueBay,

I can hear that you are feeling really disheartened around finding an admin job and being really harsh on yourself in the process. It sounds like you desperately need some hope and self-compassion.

As @Zoe7 said, taking your meds is a very personal choice so it is very important to reflect on your reasons for discontinuing your meds. Whilst it is important to take responsibility for the choices you make and their consequences, going into a space of shame and self-blame around this keeps you stuck and is, thus, unhelpful. So no matter what choice you make, do so with consciousness (as @Zoe7 said), reflection and self-compassion.

Look after yourself in the best way you can @BlueBay!

Kindest,

Amour_Et_Psyché

I know what everyone is saying. It's not easy.

i am disheartened and feel lost and feel left out.
I feel that everyone is having a go at me tonight.

msybe next time I won't write about my meds.
@Former-Member I'm reflecting that not taking my meds is a bad thing. I'm taking them tonight.
When I'm not good mentally I don't think. I sabotage in a lot of ways. No meds is one way.
It doesn't matter.

No-one is 'having a go at you' @BlueBay You were honest in telling us about your meds and we have done the same in highlighting what effect that has had on you previously and what the consequences are for you. That is why we have asked you to consicously make that choice and not simply self-sabotage as the result for you is never a good one.

Hey @BlueBay, I just wanted to pop my head in here and say good on you for acting with self compassion and taking your meds, particularly when it sounds like there was a loud part of you saying do the opposite. I especially loved your insight, when you said how your meds give you clarity to make healthier decisions. It's not always easy to have that clarity when you're feeling lost or perhaps misunderstood. I hope you're able to continue to ride that wave of self compassion...take it easy and go gently 🌊 🌻

Took my tabs this morning

I'm in psin though. My wrist continues to be the same. The last week my sore hip has been bothering me. Well today it's both hips. I went for a walk to help stretch things out but it's made it worse. I'm now laying down in a bad mood. Feeling very sorry for myself.
@Former-Member @Zoe7 @Faith-and-Hope @Shaz51 @Maggie @MDT @Owlunar

Hey my friend @outlander

I've just emailed my chiro. Can't see him at the moment as I'm self isolating waiting for Covid results.
hope you are doing ok. Xxx