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not feeling good

not feeling good

At the moment i am not feeling good. i feel like my body is in 'run away mode'. i feel my body is running on a high, my head is so mixed up. i have to go to bed and try to sleep, but don't know if i can.

my hormones are everywhere at the moment; my mood is sky high negative. i can't deal with this anymre. all of a sudden i am not feeling good. i think it is anxiety.

i don't know why i feel like this; i just want to cry but can't becsue everyone is home. i am going to bed. i don't know what is going on. actually maybe it is anxiety because i felt like passing out today.

I went to my GP to have my mirena IUD taken out as I had had enough. But he couldn't find the string, so he sent me for a ultrasound. Had that and the guy said i had two fibroids and a cyst on my ovary. but he couldn't find the string either, so had to have an xray to find the metal piece. they didn't tell me anything. but while waiting i was so anxious i almost passed out.

so now i have to wait for tomorrow when my GP will call me at work and let me know what will happen now. hopefully he can take the mirena out. i don't know.

my body is reacting to my anxiety - i feel so shaky, i need to stop. no point telling anyone at home becasue (a) they won't believe me and (b) they prob wouldn't care.

sorry, i had to tell someone. i feel so alone 😞

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Re: not feeling good

I've been chatting with a counsellor online @Jynx

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I'm glad @BlueBay, hope you get what you want out of it

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Hi @Jynx

I had the same guy a few nights He is very caring and understanding. I've been lucky to get him each time.
I'm ok for now. Think I'll stay off tonight.
Thsnks for your support xx

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Anytime @BlueBay, take care and stay warm

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sitting with you my sister @BlueBay , holding your hand

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Thsnks my sis @Shaz51

im not good. Triggered by a memory. @Jynx
I was only a child

I couldn't escape

I was stuck in a room

I need to run

fast

now

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I'm so sorry to hear this @BlueBay, I hope you are able to engage in some grounding to pull yourself back into the here and now. Please do reach out to a helpline if you need to talk it through:

Samaritans: 135 247

BeyondBlue: 1300 22 4636

1800RESPECT: 1800 737 732

Lifeline: 13 11 14 or Crisis Chat

Suicide call back service: 1300 659 467 or online counselling

I'm signing off for the evening but please feel free to tag @moderator or flick us an email if you need extra support tonight - team@saneforums.org

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Re: not feeling good

Angels protect me

wrap me up in your arms

Don't let any harm come to me

for I'm broken and damaged

My childhood has gone

my family is broken

I don't know

my dreams are gone to dust

my life is just the same

for I don't know any other

the fear is huge

the memories are clear

I wish he would away far away from me

memirues stick like glue to my head

peeking it off just tears it all up

if I had my chance again

I would scream punch kick and hide


the pain is strong

the torture in my head

the roller coaster rides

the emotions

I have to stop it sll

pls don't do this anymore

I was only a child

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Your writing is highly articulate @BlueBay - you express yourself well

But that is in the past and can't be changed - it will always be terrible but all you can do is accept it so it won't hurt you any more

You can't get your childhood back but who would want to

Please let go of the past abuses of your life - they are destroying you

Dec

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@Owlunar

i know i have to let go - but at the moment i am retriggered by some horrible dreams and memories from my childhood -

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