not feeling good

@BlueBay . I put this up on another thread a few days ago. I hope it helps in a small kind of way.

Thinking of you @BlueBay

XOXO ANGELS333

That's a really nice piece of writing @Maggie

thanks for posting. I've taken a screenshot and will read this whenever I'm feeling down

you know I'm a born worrier. I always worry about something.

the finance situation is getting to me. I know we have money from inheritance from MIL passing. But we didn't plan to use it all on day to day expenses.
Next week I have no shifts until sat. I'm starting to panic.
oh I don't know. We had planned to use that money fir a nice holiday like New Zealand but now I don't think we'll go anywhere.

I shouldn't whinge and complain as there are so many with no job.

I know I wrote that hubby should worry about the finances but it's me thst worries so much. There is not a lot really that he can do.

The only choice we have is to sell our home. My dream home. There's not much else

and I feel it's my fault. If I wasn't so dam depressed and not cope, if I don't get sick all the time - I could have worked more and we could keep our home.

Im going to go now. I need to just focus on one thing at a time. My physical health comes first

Thankyou @Angels333 xxxooo ❤️

What are you doing today @BlueBay? Getting some rest or working again? I have group today.....

@Angels333

Seeing my psychologist this morning (glad I'm seeing her)

group therapy all afternoon

seeing surgeon for carpal tunnel

That's a busy day @BlueBay . I'm glad you are seeing your psych...

Hugs to you ❤🧡💛💚💙💜

@Angels333 @Maggie @MDT @Molliex @Owlunar @Former-Member @Faith-and-Hope snd others

Update on today -

1. session with psychologist

I spoke to her about my surgery and wirk. We did a pros and cons list and it was very clear I need time off to have surgery and recover. She thinks I need a completely different job as this one is not helping my body.
she wants to write down the coping skills and tools I have learnt over the years. Then I will give to her next session.
2. group therapy
that was a very hard session today. It was on accepting that you can't chsnge a person. All of us found it hard. We then finished off eith one song each thst we like and he played it on Spotify. It was a great way to end a hard session.
3. surgeon

what a nice caring guy. I walk in there and he asked how my day was. I told him I had just finished group therapy and he spoke to me about depression and anxiety. He was so nice. He even recommended two books to read. He then spoke about my hand and the surgery.
So I'm booked in for two weeks time at same hospital where I do group therapy.

I'm tired mentally. I don't want to go to eirk on Saturday. And next week I have no shifts at all.
I don't know what to do.

my sister @BlueBay , you have had a big day

even though you had some good with the not so good but it does take it out of you mentally and physically too

time now is to try and relax , taking a nice bath might help

sittig with you xxx

I'm not feeling well

I feel dizzy and terrible indigestion.